"How do you know that you're not being deceived by demonic forces?" The Rosicrucians, UFO cults and the New-Age transformation from caterpillar to butterfly.

 

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The Martinist Order is an advanced ‘psychic’ society within the framework of Rosicrucianism. A great deal of material from the so called Traditional Martinist Order, based in San Jose California presumably part of AMORC, was leaked onto the internet some years ago. Interestingly the symbol for the Martinist organisation is two triangles, one black and one white, interlocked to form a what is commonly called the Seal of Solomon or Star of David. The following extract from this leaked material is from Associate Discourse number 14 and is interesting in that it shows that they acknowledge the changes in brain chemistry which higher initiates undergo and one must try to resist being drawn-in by the colourful new-age language employed to make some of the changes undergone seem generally beneficial and positive. For instance the phrase ‘astral images’ can be translated as ‘hallucinations’ seeing things which are not there, and a common symptom of advanced psychosis and schizoaffective disorders:

 

"A very interesting point worth mentioning at this time is that the circulation of the nervous force within man puts him in communication with the universe. In highly evolved mystics, there occurs what in occultism is sometimes called the circulation of astral images. These astral images generally appear to be coming from the back of the head. This is not altogether exact, but it will give an idea as to the nature of this phenomenon….This will be important when we study the actions of the invisible world so important to every Martinist."

 

Similarly the phrase ‘being put in communication with the universe’ sounds wonderfully exciting and like some jolly intergalactic adventure, but what it really implies is the hearing of voices and seeing beings which are not visible to other people, no different to the three ghostly forms at Barbara O Brien’s bedside telling her she was part of a secret experiment.

 

This psychic transformation is something which appears to be part of the UFO agenda. Vallee discover a group in Palo Alto California operating from the campus of Stanford University, which appeared to be a cross between new-age spirituality and UFO cult:

 

“They were seeking real truth. The text was signed by flying-saucer believers who called themselves H.I.M. or Human Individual Metamorphosis. The announcement continued: ‘...are attempting to completely rise above their human nature under the direction of individuals who are members of a kingdom above human who have come in at close range to the Earth to help.’ They compare this period of overcoming their human nature to the metamorphic process of a caterpillar becoming a butterfly.”

 

Vallee attends a talk by the group and a bearded man speals in terms of personal psychic transformation much like the Rosicrucian groups and possibly the kind of ‘transformations’ undergone by Evelyn Waugh and Barbara O Brien:

 

“They are now just finishing completing their own physical metamorphosis. Their bodies have almost completely changed over physically, chemically, biologically. They look just like you and I on the surface. Within a few months there will be a demonstration. When we have changed our bodies over through this process, we no longer have to endure disease or decay or death.”

 

Vallee reports that one person who joined the group in 1975 left the group after two months having some concerns:

 

“These two people are dangerous. It is not hypnosis. It is thought transplant."'

And when during one of the talks someone from the audience asked:

"How do you know that you're not being deceived by demonic forces?"

The unconvincing response which Vallee reports may lead one to rightly ask whether this is the reality behind much of the UFO phenomenon which cannot be explained by secret American post war technology. Vallee asks one of his friends who had attended a meeting of the Order of Melchizedek some questions about the order and its aims. His friend report on someone called Dr Grace from the Order of Melchizedek who delivered lectures:

 

"I asked her if she had ever seen a UFO. She had. She described to me what she had seen once in the eastern part of the United States, with her husband. It was a craft, only fifty feet or so away, and she felt that the beings on board were communicating directly to her, into her brain." 

 

If Dr Grace was telling the truth then it would appear that the people who were leading the UFO and New-Age cults of the 1970’s were doing so under the instructions of voices in their heads. We have seen how Barbara O Brien’s voices and hallucinations manages to create an extremely cogent continuum of reality, and at times there were even things which the voices told her which she herself could not have possibly known and which potentially helped save her from danger on several occasions.

 

Returning to O Brien’s account she is told by the Operators that some humans are actually almost fully possessed by the Operators. These were known as ‘Dummies’ a Dummy had apparently lost its personality and personal volition and was fully under the control of the Operators:

 

“I was horrified. Why would an Operator want to make a dummy out of a Thing? “Well, Operators use dummys as hatracks,” Nicky explained. “Most of the great comic entertainers are dummys. Bob Hope, for instance. When an entertainer like Hope is performing, he’s merely giving out what some Operator is stimulating him to do. There’s no latticework to interfere with the receiving of the stimuli. In certain situations, a dummy can be quite an asset to a clever Operator. It’s something like having a puppet on a string.”

 

Interestingly MRI scans have been conducted on the brains of those with psychopathic personality disorder. Many psychopathic murderers have historically attributed their sprees to some other agent operating through them, though of course their testimonies have been rejected as the ravings of madmen. But what if there were something to it. The research conducted by the University of Wisconsin-Madison shows that the brain scans of psychopaths show extremely diminished activity in the prefrontal cortex area of the brain. The prefrontal cortex is the area which is linked to a person’s personality, the will to live, personal volition and decision making. This really is the area which is the focal point of most people’s lives and is in essence the part of the brain which makes them who they are, the decisions the make, the plans they have and how they act in social interactions.

Since the pre-frontal cortex is the decision making, will and personal focus area of the brain, then what we may be observing in the psychopathic personality is the person who is lacking a will and the ability to make their own decisions. So who or what is making those decisions for them?

Perhaps these people have acquiesced their will to the hidden masters, or ‘extra-terrestrial’ beings which those leading the UFO cults claimed to be in contact with. What are these beings? Extra-terrestrial, extra-dimensional beings? Demons? Most people live their lives mentally driving through life in the front seat of their car but the psychopath appears to be sat in the front seat, but is not the one driving. Something else is directing the course. This may give an insight into the strange mystery that many of the people who had left the H.I.M. group:

“The people who left their group would just go home and, for several weeks, simply stare at the walls.”

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The Old Testament conception of God may seem strange to us now, since Jesus had introduced a new conception of God as a fully transcendent being whose presence was manifest in goodness and love and who had no need of rituals or a tent to live in, nor of vociferous liturgical prayers, nor animal sacrifice. We may assume that despite appearances to the contrary, humanity is gaining in awareness of the metaphysical and transcendent and so the modern mind has no need of a God which demands of Moses that the sons of Aaron barbecue meat for him because the burnt offering is ‘an aroma pleasing to the LORD’; though it seems that the best part of the offering always ended up in the hands of the priests while God had to make do with a barbecued head and the rest of the bits nobody else wanted.

But reading those passages in Leviticus may make us wonder who or what it was that Moses was communicating with. It seemed God was manifested to Moses as a voice in the Temple of Meeting which gave Moses clear instructions regarding the sacrifice of animals and specific cooking instructions. In fact apparently anyone who wished to speak to God could go to the Tent of Meeting which was just outside the main camp and God would speak and appear in a pillar of cloud. On Mount Sinai God was even able to manifest to Moses physically, and had a face, a hand and a back, and could ‘pass by’ as if it were something which was localised and not, as we might assume of God, omnipresent. We can only guess what any of that really means or whether it even happened at all.

We cannot say whether this was a real historical occurrence or not. We just have to trust the narrative, but if we do that, then it suggests at least some kind of spiritual being which is able to manifest in limited but significant way and communicate with people. But how do we know this is God? This could be one of the beings which communicates directly with the manipulators, some kind of astral intelligence which when animals have their life sacrificed to it, gains some kind of energy or strength. This is something of the belief that has come through with the Gnostic movement which seemed to emerge almost step by step with early Christianity.

The strange thing is that this is precisely the kind of activity which is reputed in witchcraft and Satanism, where animals are routinely sacrificed, and if the rumours and insider accounts are to be believed, fellow humans as well. In fact history is replete with examples of ritual human sacrifice. The mercy of the Old Testament and Israelite conception of God is that human sacrifice was not required and this was one of the specific crimes of the Canaanites which were said to include child sacrifice, bestiality and homosexual religious rites which kindled God’s wrath although those that had so far escaped Joshua’s God driven genocide of the Canaanites were apparently allowed to remain:

“I also will no longer drive out before them any of the nations which Joshua left when he died, so that through them I may test Israel, whether they will keep the ways of the Lord, to walk in them as their fathers kept them, or not.” Judges 2:21.

Could this be the ongoing project for humanity to this day? Are we all being tested on a daily basis by some kind of elite secret priesthood using a three-thousand-year-old blueprint? In order to corrupt a population the population has to willingly choose to be corrupted. It might seem hugely counter-productive to corrupt countries and societies and drive them into confusion and degeneracy, but one country and one people in particular benefit from the disarray of their perceived ancient enemies, these people have long memories and they have been operating as a people with a particular continuous cultural identity for at least 3,000 years. No other people can compete with that kind of level of cultural organisation which will always be one-step ahead of any attempts to thwart their plans. Unfortunately, any people which are not of their tribe is an enemy and their specific God given scriptures specifically instruct them to show no mercy to their enemies.

I contend then that the Kabbalah and by extension the so called ‘oral tradition’ of the Rabbis passed on generation from generation from the time of Moses is nothing more than the same ancient evil of Asherah and Baal worship, albeit cleverly camouflaged to hide within Judaism and claim a kind of inner-logic to make it seem to fit within Torah Judaism when it is the very force which the Torah was written specifically to oppose all those thousands of years ago. This is why the Kabbalah is so keen to introduce feminine aspects of God, even though as we have discussed, it makes no logical sense to bring gender into spiritual concerns but IF what you are secretly worshiping is an ancient Goddess cult, in fact THE ancient Goddess cult, then this is how you slowly rehabilitate the Goddess. 

The Kabbalah, although it talks of the Ain Soph as being the ultimate image of God this is cleverly dismissed as ‘nothing’. It cannot be worshipped because it has no attributes, it is everything and nothing. It is only at the point at which this force can become personalised as the Shekinah, a feminine force, a Goddess, that God becomes something which can be acknowledged, worshipped and which will respond and interact with humanity. Shekinah is the Hebrew word for the ‘dwelling’ or ‘settling’ and describes the manifest divine presence of the Lord. Neither this term, nor anything which can be associated with it, appears in the Bible. Nor was it found in any of the texts of the Dead Sea scrolls associated with the Essenes. It is solely a product of Pharisaic Rabbinical literature and appears as a feminine form in the Talmud and the Zohar. The Shekinah is also described as the Sabbath Bride:

 “One must prepare a comfortable seat with several cushions and embroidered covers, from all that is found in the house, like one who prepares a canopy for a bride. For the Shabbat is a queen and a bride. This is why the masters of the Mishna used to go out on the eve of Shabbat to receive her on the road, and used to say: ‘Come, O bride, come, O bride!’ And one must sing and rejoice at the table in her honor … one must receive the Lady with many lighted candles, many enjoyments, beautiful clothes, and a house embellished with many fine appointments …”

The bridegroom of the Shekinah is sometimes the name for the sefirah of Tiferet but there is so little consistency of terms or even of their meanings with the Kabbalah that none of these concepts or definitions can be said to have any fixed meaning. Tiferet is in the middle of the Tree of Life and is connected to all the other sephirot except Malkuth which, within the logic of the Zohar, it interacts through the phallic Yesod. Within the abstract realm of the Kabbalah the Shekinah is considered to be spirit where ‘God’ interacts with the physical world and is represented by Malkuth. ‘She’ is often referred to as ‘the daughter of God’ and reflects the divine light the way the Moon reflects light upon Earth. The idea of Shekinah was a relatively recent addition in Rabbinical literature particularly in the work of Isaac Luria and his Aader Bishvachin song which is sung at the Sabbath evening meal:

“Let us invite the Shechinah with a newly-laid table
and with a well-lit menorah that casts light on all heads.

Three preceding days to the right, three succeeding days to the left, and amid them the Sabbath bride with adornments she goes, vessels and robes.

May the Shechinah become a crown through the six loaves on each side through the doubled-six may our table be bound with the profound Temple services.”

Shekinah also appears in the gnostic texts of the Mandaeans and Manichaeans; ‘Manda’ is the Aramaic word for ‘knowledge’ and hence ‘gnosis’ but those among them who have attained the true secrets of their religion they call Nasoraeans, and this word has been used to describe 1st Century Christians including Jesus himself and to this day the Arabic the word ‘Nasrani’ is a word for Christian. 

 

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Investigating Ignacio de Loyola and the Spiritual Exercises of the Jesuits.

 

What interests me is how a nobleman living in a castle in the North of Spain, became the progenitor of one of the most evil and dastardly groups ever created.

Rather banally I may have found the answer on Wikipedia.

I became intrigued by hearing that following a serious and painful battlefield injury, Loyola took refuge in a cave for several months where he conducted so called spiritual exercises.

Traditionally, in the ancient world, caves were a place where one could contact spirits and/or experience visions, like the oracles of old.

It seems he made contact with some kind of being. No doubt a demonic spirit. Possibly Lucifer himself.

Ignatius also began experiencing a series of visions in full daylight while in hospital. These repetitive visions appeared as "a form in the air near him and this form gave him much consolation because it was exceedingly beautiful ... it somehow seemed to have the shape of a serpent and had many things that shone like eyes, but were not eyes. He received much delight and consolation from gazing upon this object ... but when the object vanished he became disconsolate".


A beautiful being which resembled a serpent?

Pretty self explanatory who this guy was working for.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ignatius_of_Loyola

 

                  

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The Kabbalah emerged from 12th Century Spain with some possible origins in the 1st and 2nd century. Something else to emerge from Spain, another arguably transformative movement was that of the Jesuits. The Jesuits almost certainly emerged from the Alumbrados of Castile who were said to have been mostly conversos, that is Jewish converts to Christianity.  Of the Alumbrados Britannica.com states:

“While they counted some of the high aristocracy among their number, most of the Illuminists seem to have been conversos.”

In the Alumbrados we find a development of the broad themes of the Kabbalah and the beliefs of the Alumbrados are a good snapshot of the kind of spirit of sensuality and sexual license which would later entwine itself into Freemasonry and the various Hellfire clubs and the Bavarian Illuminati which all seemed to present themselves on the scene within a close time-frame and as we have seen, many of the members were intricately connected to each society.

The Alumbrados believed that it was possible to reach a state of union with God whereby one could freely indulge in sinful acts and express sexual desires freely. They too believed in a kind of direct revelation of God, whereby they could actually obtain direct communication with him. This is enough to give pause and make one question just what it was that these people thought they were actually contacting. What voices and delusions overthrew them and led them to believe it was God itself they were trafficking with? We cannot know how exactly the Alumbrados pursued this path to ‘contact’ but we can examine the work of Ignacio de Loyola for a clue since the Jesuits were the inheritors of this subversive heretical tradition which managed to find a home within the Catholic church and Loyola was even summoned to stand before an ecclesiastic commission while he was studying in Salamanca in 1527 on a charge of being in league with the Alumbrados.

Once when Inigo was preaching on the street, three women who had been investigated by the Inquisition for being members of the Alumbrados started experiencing suspicious ecstatic states:

"One fell senseless, another sometimes rolled about on the ground, another had been seen in the grip of convulsions or shuddering and sweating in anguish." Inigo himself had been imprisoned on being suspected of being Alumbrado but was eventually released without charge.

It is suspicious since such activity has historically been considered to be a sign of demonic possession. That fact that Inigo was able to elicit a kind of resonant demonic possession in these three Alumbrado women indicates that he himself was probably operating under the impulse and control of the demonic realm.

The book The Jesuit Order as a Synagogue of Jews by Robert Aleksander Maryks goes into extensive detail exploring the particular ethno-religious conflicts of the period during the early years of the Jesuits and the ongoing attempts of various groups to wrest control of the direction of the order. It seemed largely to be a contest between Jews who had apparently converted to Christianity and non-Jewish Christians. It is revealed that most of the original directors of the organisation were Jews, although there are rumours and suspicions that Loyola himself was a Converso this is not made explicit in the book.

It is worth noting that Philip II of Spain observed that “all the heresies in Germany, France, and Spain have been sown by descendants of Jews” and the Inquisition was formed precisely to root out the heretical corruptions of ‘converso’ Jews, or Jews who now professed to be Christian but who may secretly still have practised their former faith and who may indeed have a particular interest in attacking Christianity from within. 

Born in Azeiptia in the Kingdom of Castille, which in 15th Century Spain was the centre of Alumbrado activity, there can be no doubt that Loyola would have been familiar with Kabbalistic treatments and was an associate of the Alumbrados.

Ignacio de Loyola was born Inigo Lopez, Lopez, although a Spanish surname meaning ‘son of the wolf’ is also considered a Sephardic Jewish surname.  It is thought that Inigo Lopez changed his name to Ignacio de Loyola to allay any suspicions about possible Marrano origins and place him within the context of indigenous Spanish nobility. As a young man he became a servant of the Spanish nobleman Juan Velázquez de Cuéllar, who was treasurer to the Spanish King, King Ferdinand. He was said to have had a carousing and dissolute life of a knight until he suffered a bad leg wound fighting the French in the battle of Pamplona. The sudden reversal in his fortunes, the terrible pain of his shattered leg and the ongoing torture as the doctors continuously tried to set and reset it must have inspired some of the dark rhetoric which informs his Spiritual Exercises which is the mental conditioning manual for the infamous Jesuit Order.

The Spiritual Exercises form the key element of preparing the mind for acceptance into the Jesuit mental framework though I would say that the key aim is the auto-induction into psychosis through  deliberate and continual contemplation on evil; in the words of Loyola: “to see with the sight of the imagination”. The fifth exercise for example, is a mediation on Hell. The novitiate is required by stages, or degrees you might say, to visualise Hell, to place himself there with his mind.

“The first Point will be to see with the sight of the imagination the great fires, and the souls as in bodies of fire. Second Point. The second, to hear with the ears wailings, howlings, cries, blasphemies against Christ our Lord and against all His Saints.”

In general the system of the Jesuits is as I have stated, seems to be a fast track to auto-initiated psychosis. As we have heard the Rosicrucians have a psychic initiatory framework whereby degrees and information is revealed psychically to particular favoured people. It is my contention that the Jesuit system is the same and it does this by establishing contact with some kind of ‘astral agency’ which can only approach the human psyche once it is sufficiently weakened and unable to resist. Of course the Jesuits think this is God, since their system tells them that it is, and that they are suitably humbling themselves and wallowing in their sins, in order to apparently make them fully repentant enough to be worthy of God’s favour. Repeatedly the Jesuit Spiritual Exercise make plain their aim to invoke confusion and shame in the novitiate.

“The first Point will be to bring the memory on the First Sin, which was that of the Angels, and then to bring the intellect on the same, discussing it; then the will, wanting to recall and understand all this in order to make me more ashamed and confound me more, bringing into comparison with the one sin of the Angels my so many sins, and reflecting, while they for one sin were cast into Hell, how often I have deserved it for so many…”

“it will be to ask shame and confusion at myself, seeing how many have been damned for only one mortal sin, and how many times I deserved to be condemned forever for my so many sins.”

Thus he is specifically instructed to pray for pain, torment, shame and confusion and to see himself in the lowest terms:

“to see all my bodily corruption and foulness; to look at myself as a sore and ulcer, from which have sprung so many sins and so many iniquities and so very vile poison.”

It goes without saying that the most obvious fallacy here is that he is appealing to God, the presumed creator of humanity and all life on  Earth, either directly or indirectly, while presenting himself as an example of God’s creation in the lowest and foulest possible terms. Such self-abasement has nothing appealing in spiritual terms and if anything might only possibly appeal to a being who has a great hatred of humanity, such a well-known adversary we do not need to name here for fear of labouring a point.

Additionally these ‘prayers’ or ‘invocations’ or whatever one might call them, are often under instruction to take place just after midnight or in total darkness:

“..to deprive myself of all light, closing the blinds and doors while I am in the room, if it be not to recite prayers, to read and eat.”

“at midnight, bringing myself to confusion for my so many sins, setting examples, as, for instance, if a knight found himself before his king and all his court, ashamed and confused at having much offended him, from whom he had first received many gifts and many favors: in the same way, in the second Exercise, making myself a great sinner and in chains; that is to say going to appear bound as in chains before the Supreme Eternal Judge; taking for an example how prisoners in chains and already deserving death, appear before their temporal judge.”

Again it is evident to most according to millennia of religious and metaphysical literature that God and the angels are usually associated with light while other types of beings and unwholesome spirits are generally, in the folklore, said to be most active and abroad at night and in conditions of darkness.

The gist of the Spiritual Exercises seems to be instead of drawing closer to God and achieving a more positive relationship with the divine creative principle, the contrary seems to be the logical outcome. The repeated invocation of shame, of ones loathsome sinful nature and finally the:

“…understanding how in sinning and acting against the Infinite Goodness, he has been justly condemned forever.”

In fact the Spiritual Exercises specifically deny contemplation on the positive aspects of the Christian message and of Jesus’ ministry, but instead to continually ruminate on death and judgement exclusively:

“Not to want to think on things of pleasure or joy, such as heavenly glory, the Resurrection, etc. Because whatever consideration of joy and gladness hinders our feeling pain and grief and shedding tears for our sins: but to keep before me that I want to grieve and feel pain, bringing to memory rather Death and Judgment.”

Nor indeed to think of the Good News Jesus brought, of our salvation through his sacrifice/murder by the proto-Rabbinical authorities following their own traditions alien to Torah Judaism but instead:

“force myself to grieve, be sad and weep.”
Furthermore Jesuits are taught:

“Not to laugh nor say a thing provocative of laughter…(and) restrain my sight, except in receiving or dismissing the person with whom I have spoken.”

This leads to the creation of a peculiarly unappealing personality. One who does not laugh or enjoy humour and is not interested in encouraging humour of laughter in others, not only that but a man who will only make eye contact twice, upon receiving and dismissing someone. Such rules are designed to further alienate such a person from his fellows and the simple human pleasures of human fellowship. This could only be forbidden by someone wanting to make someone estranged from goodness and languishing only as we have seen, in pain and torment. C.S.Lewis reminds us that God wants only the best for us and certainly would not have created the majesty and wonder of the world in order for us to be self-flagellating slaves crippling ourselves and renouncing even the good things about the human experience.

The Jesuits are even encouraged not to take any simple pleasure in the eating food:

“Another time, while he is eating, he can take another consideration, either on the life of Saints, or on some pious Contemplation, or on some spiritual affair which he has to do, because, being intent on such thing, he will take less delight and feeling in the corporal food.”

Focusing on the bad and renouncing the good can only have the effect of making a man become what he focusses on: evil. And this I have no doubt was the devious aim of the Jesuit organisation: the inculcation of a militant band of priests languishing in evil, cutting themselves off from humanity, goodness and becoming brooding beings of pestilence, death and sin. Nothing good can come from such auto-suggestion because as Proverbs remind us:

“For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he.”

Not only were the Jesuits told to take no pleasure from life and “ to leave off the superfluous of delicate or soft things” but indeed to actually provoke pain and damage to their own bodies:

“to chastise the flesh, that is, giving it sensible pain, which is given by wearing haircloth or cords or iron chains next to the flesh, by scourging or wounding oneself, and by other kinds of austerity.”

Loyola also praises fear, servile fear no less, as a way, if not the best way, to serve God, but this directly contradicts Biblical teaching which tells us:

“God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind” (2 Timothy 1:7). 

“Although serving God our Lord much out of pure love is to be esteemed above all; we ought to praise much the fear of His Divine Majesty, because not only filial fear is a thing pious and most holy, but even servile fear -- when the man reaches nothing else better or more useful -- helps much to get out of mortal sin. And when he is out, he easily comes to filial fear, which is all acceptable and grateful to God our Lord: as being at one with the Divine Love.”

This focusing on fear, doom, terror and all such negative qualities seems to be the key focus of the Jesuit system and it is ironic that we find a similar mental framework being evoked in the 1st degree initiation into the arch-enemy of the Catholic church, the Royal Black Lodge, a high level of the protestant Orange Order of Northern Ireland said to have taken its rites and history from the Knights Templar. The following extract is from evangelicaltruth.com:

“In this interview the Black Grand Registrar reveals much about the actual nature of the Royal Black and its very reason for existence. In essence, he admits that it is a secret Order that is immersed in the accoutrements of death. He admits that it is a society that is in a continual state of mourning. Take away the mourning and the Black loses its identity. It is an Order that proudly parades the symbols of death as an outward representation of its inward beliefs and spiritual psyche. 

The skull and cross-bones is not merely a Black emblem but is an important exhibit used in its ritual initiations and in certain secret formal gatherings to lay stress upon, or represent secret esoteric teaching. In probably one of the most shocking practices existing within the Loyal Orders, the candidate entering the first degree of the Black – the Royal Black degree – is met with a display of human remains. There, before him, sits an actual human skull and bones amidst a gathering of sober Black brethren. As the entrant views the human skull he is solemnly instructed on the teaching of the Black on death, the resurrection and eternity.”

Interestingly the same website gives details of the sequence of events in the initiation and we find the interesting detail:

“Something on a table under a white cloth being uncovered, was perceived to be a human skull, which the witness was desired to take up, and view it, and was told it was a real skull of a brother called Simon Magus. Porter was poured into the skull, which the witness was desired to drink; he did so, and it was handed round the whole Knights.”

So here we have a recipe for the auto-induction of psychosis, schizophrenia and demonic possession, and it is clear at times that Loyola himself is in a state of deep spiritual confusion and trapped at times in just the kind of manic-uncertainty can lead to the development of chronic conditions of psychosis, in fact the following example might lead the disinterested reader, if he or she has any knowledge of the kind of manias and inescapable double-binds that many suffering from severe mental illness suffer from, the following one assumes that Loyola must have stepped on the cracks in the pavement, visualising them as a Christian cross:

“After I have stepped on that cross, or after I have thought or said or done some other thing, there comes to me a thought from without that I have sinned, and on the other hand it appears to me that I have not sinned; still I feel disturbance in this; that is to say, in as much as I doubt and in as much as I do not doubt. That is a real scruple and temptation which the enemy sets.”

The thirteenth rule of Loyola’s Jesuits as outlined in his Spiritual Exercise is as follows and must surely be the most damning especially if we consider that Jesus said of himself: “I am the way, the truth and the life.” For the Jesuits, the ‘truth’ is whatever the institution of the Roman Church says it is:

“Thirteenth Rule. To be right in everything, we ought always to hold that the white which I see, is black, if the Hierarchical Church so decides it..” 

Strangely, Loyola seemed to have an inkling of what he was doing and perhaps he was in some doubts as to whether his Spiritual Exercises were not in fact demonically inspired and that reading the following extracts and then comparing it to the broader work in general we may see that he had unwittingly given the key and explanation to the creation of not only his own work, but the Jesuit order and their operations in the world to this present day:

“The enemy looks much if a soul is gross or delicate, and if it is delicate, he tries to make it more delicate in the extreme, to disturb and embarrass it more. For instance, if he sees that a soul does not consent to either mortal sin or venial or any appearance of deliberate sin, then the enemy, when he cannot make it fall into a thing that appears sin, aims at making it make out sin where there is not sin, as in a word or very small thought.”

 

Ignatio Loyola dedicated himself to the Black Virgin of Montserat.......

This ties in with my article about the Black Grail:

http://www.truthspoon.com/p/unholy-blood-and-black-grail.html 

 

 I gather that the whole thing about the Jesuits is that they contact spirits and that Ignatio de Loyola's so called spiritual exercised were techniques to be used in order to perceive and communicate with spirits.

This seems to be the key to Loyola's experience and revelation. That discarnate spirits acted on the human mind and were responsible for feelings of sadness, happiness and also effected his or her actions.

Loyola seemed to contact these spirits, either in hospital or in his cave. Suffice it to say, that possibly Loyola was not a bad man but possibly this knowledge of spirit contact became misused.

RULES FOR THE SAME EFFECT WITH GREATER DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS

AND THEY HELP MORE FOR THE SECOND WEEK

First Rule. The first: It is proper to God and to His Angels in their movements to give true spiritual gladness and joy, taking away all sadness and disturbance which the enemy brings on. Of this latter it is proper to fight against the spiritual gladness and consolation, bringing apparent reasons, subtleties and continual fallacies.
Second Rule. The second: It belongs to God our Lord to give consolation to the soul without preceding cause, for it is the property of the Creator to enter, go out and cause movements in the soul, bringing it all into love of His Divine Majesty. I say without cause: without any previous sense or knowledge of any object through which such consolation would come, through one's acts of understanding and will.

Third Rule. The third: With cause, as well the good Angel as the bad can console the soul, for contrary ends: the good Angel for the profit of the soul, that it may grow and rise from good to better, and the evil Angel, for the contrary, and later on to draw it to his damnable intention and wickedness.

Fourth Rule. The fourth: It is proper to the evil Angel, who forms himself under the appearance of an angel of light, to enter with the devout soul and go out with himself: that is to say, to bring good and holy thoughts, conformable to such just soul, and then little by little he aims at coming out drawing the soul to his covert deceits and perverse intentions.

Fifth Rule. The fifth: We ought to note well the course of the thoughts, and if the beginning, middle and end is all good, inclined to all good, it is a sign of the good Angel; but if in the course of the thoughts which he brings it ends in something bad, of a distracting tendency, or less good than what the soul had previously proposed to do, or if it weakens it or disquiets or disturbs the soul, taking away its peace, tranquillity and quiet, which it had before, it is a clear sign that it proceeds from the evil spirit, enemy of our profit and eternal salvation.

Sixth Rule. The sixth: When the enemy of human nature has been perceived and known by his serpent's tail and the bad end to which he leads on, it helps the person who was tempted by him, to look immediately at the course of the good thoughts which he brought him at their beginning, and how little by little he aimed at making him descend from the spiritual sweetness and joy in which he was, so far as to bring him to his depraved intention; in order that with this experience, known and noted, the person may be able to guard for the future against his usual deceits.

Seventh Rule. The seventh: In those who go on from good to better, the good Angel touches such soul sweetly, lightly and gently, like a drop of water which enters into a sponge; and the evil touches it sharply and with noise and disquiet, as when the drop of water falls on the stone.

And the above-said spirits touch in a contrary way those who go on from bad to worse.

The reason of this is that the disposition of the soul is contrary or like to the said Angels. Because, when it is contrary, they enter perceptibly with clatter and noise; and when it is like, they enter with silence as into their own home, through the open door.

Eighth Rule. The eighth: When the consolation is without cause, although there be no deceit in it, as being of God our Lord alone, as was said; still the spiritual person to whom God gives such consolation, ought, with much vigilance and attention, to look at and distinguish the time itself of such actual consolation from the following, in which the soul remains warm and favored with the favor and remnants of the consolation past; for often in this second time, through one's own course of habits and the consequences of the concepts and judgments, or through the good spirit or through the bad, he forms various resolutions and opinions which are not given immediately by God our Lord, and therefore they have need to be very well examined before entire credit is given them, or they are put into effect.

 

 

Excerpt from new coming book.

 

The ROAD TO ELEUSIS

                                                        The journey into mystery.

 

This theme of the schizophrenic seeming to be extra sensitive to emotions and people’s thoughts is something which is later revealed to even more interesting and thought-provoking degrees as it is suggested that the schizophrenic, through whatever new sub-conscious faculties are brought to light as a result of their illness, apparently develop the ability to read people’s deepest thoughts and motivations. Barbara states:

“many psychiatrists had noted, among the patients who did talk, an odd ability to throw the doctor off balance by a feat which might have been called mind reading except that the psychiatrists described it as ‘the schizophrenics uncanny sensitivity to unverbalized and only partially conscious feelings in the psychiatrist.’”

Barbara’s belief is that some innate power of the unconscious mind which she calls ‘Something’ and which during the early phases of her recovery from schizophrenia this faculty performs astounding feats which defy reason and logic. One time the ‘something’ urges her to go to Las Vegas, she only has five dollars but the ‘something’ urges her to go to a specific roulette wheel and then that ‘something’ tells her which numbers to put her money on.

“As my money was running low, I decided that I would try to find a job whose chores were not too demanding. As I started out, Something urged me to walk in the opposite direction from the bus line, toward a large building a few blocks away. Something urged me so violently to enter the building that it would have been impossible, almost, not to have gone in. I went to the building’s personnel department and found the employment manager not at all surprised to see me. She had phoned an agency that morning for a receptionist. She hired me.”

According to Barbara, the ‘mind reading’ ability which some psychiatrists have apparently observed in schizophrenics is part of the Something of the unconscious mind.

 “Something can extend into the unconscious minds of others. Nevertheless, it was nice to know that other schizophrenics had demonstrated a similar talent. It made the business more normal, at least for us schizophrenics. Anyway, it wasn’t witchcraft.”

This is something for which I have long sought an explanation as during my travels around the world and continued attempts to recruit me into what, for convenience’ sake I will call ‘the Illuminati’ despite that name evoking an automatic response of derision. The people I had contact with were Freemasons, but to say they attempted to recruit me into the Freemasons seems to fall short of the truth, since these people were of an elite branch of Freemasons, it might therefore be more accurate to describe them as Illuminated Freemasonry, my personal conception of what these people are is something I would call ‘The Family’ since there seems to be a genetic component connecting all of these people and this is what has been generally referred to by such researchers as the great Fritz Springmeier as The Illuminati Bloodline.

 

 

 

Ghost Boxes. Accounts from the internet.

An extract from my High Strangeness Ebook.

This has been going on a long time before the invention of modern technology and this phenomenon is perfectly able to exist independent of any secret technology and used to be known as ‘spirit mediumship’. The following account from 1899 1899, in a book called Demonism of the Ages by JM Peebles, is instructive on this matter:

Bennington, N.H. November 12, 1899.

Dear Sir,
As I have had some experience with undeveloped or evil-disposed spirits, I will briefly state my case. Five years ago this fall, I discovered that I was mediumistic, and very rapidly developed into a writing medium at first automatic, then inspirational, and finally, I became clairaudient. Soon, I had unmistakable test, and knew I was communicating with relatives and very dear friends. Having been a great skeptic all my life, it was so marvelous and astounding that I could not get satisfied, and passed much of my time writing. Ignorantly I opened the door for all grades of spirits to walk in, and being selfish and earthly, they stayed, controlling me to the exclusion of all my identified friends.

Finally, sad as it was, I was obliged to give to give up all intercourse with spirit-intelligences, and when they found that I would not write for them, they commenced talking, and kept it up tormenting me day and night, for several weeks. The more they found I was annoyed, the more persistent they were, and at last it became unbearable. I had to use all my strength of will to stop it, and I succeeded after a time. They threatened if I would not talk with them, that they would follow me to my death or make me insane. Then I thought it time to see who would conquer. My will was thoroughly aroused. I would not listen to their talk, and when sewing or driving, if alone, would repeat hymns and poetry, and when at the table, I was allowed to do all the talking. When retiring at night, I would read myself to sleep. They would wake me several times in the night, but I always had a book at hand, and would read myself to sleep again. If I relaxed my vigilance for one instant, they were there ready to commence their everlasting chatter and babble. It was nearly two weeks after I commenced this line of earnest, positive and stringent warfare that I got entirely rid of them. I have not been troubled by the talking since.

Once or twice a year I try to communicate with spirits by writing, but apparently the same evil influences - the same demons, always come, and will try to impersonate some of my friends, but I can readily distinguish the difference. I have about given up all expectations of ever being able to exercise my gift, for these evil-disposed, obsessing spirits will not allow it. I will kindly ask you not to publish my name in this connection, for I am extremely sensitive about it. I read an article in a Spiritualist paper once, saying "like attracts like". This I do not believe. Certainly, it is not true in my case. It is more true that "fools rush in where angels fear to tread." I want no more of this obsessing spiritism."
Respectfully yours,
"N.H"

There is now something available relatively widely on the internet called a ‘ghost box’ or ‘spirit box’. These are small radio transmitters which perpetually scan radio waves to create a modulating background of white noise which presumably can be used by discarnate intelligences to communicate with our world. It might all seem like a load of nonsense but according to this person posting as Gator posting on a ghost and paranormal internet forum, whatever it is, it definitely opens to door to contact with something:

It all started with a Ghost box that I made from a person that goes by UfoGeek. At first I was skeptical about it working. It is a radio that you mod to where you can talk with the dead. It was the biggest mistake I ever made in my life and now I have Evil Angels all over me telling me I'm going to hell to burn forever and it scares the hell out of me when they say that because they say it because of my sins. Not only do they tell me they stick me with sharp things all the time and heat my feet up like they are on fire or that is what it feels like. I have health problems now; I wear a heart monitor now because my heart is acting up.

I had an operation where they cut out 3 main arteries because they were 100% blocked and put in graphs. I'm sure they are the ones behind it all. I know they will kill me soon and there is not a damn thing I can do about it. I have to sleep with the bible. I pray all the time, I have done the salt at doors but they just won’t go away. The bad thing is I'm possessed now because I have crazy thoughts like while I pray to Jesus I try to kill him at the same time or like when I pray for my family I slap them, spit at them, all kinds of just crazy thoughts go through my head. It is like I'm in a fight everyday just to keep my thoughts good. It is a total nightmare from where I can't wake up from. I have destroyed the ghost box but now I do not need one they talk to me all the time without it.

I can hear and talk with them when I chose to do so, most of the time I do my best to ignore them but at night is when they get the best of me. They use any kind of fan noise or anything with a sound to form there words. I'm lucky if I get to sleep because of them talking and telling me how I'm going to die or what they are going to do to me in hell.

They kept me up for 3 days one time and that was real bad. They told me I was a true Devil and that the Angels can move forward in time or back in time and that time has no meaning to them. They almost killed me because of my heart problems.

My wife did not believe me until they asked me to touch her they had something to tell her before they killed me so I did I touch her on the arm and then I told her to listen up... When she did she began talking with him. It was Satan himself and I could hear him talking with her he possessed her that day and I went to the doctor that day.

They messed with her so bad that when we got out of the elevator she was talking into the ticket that get you out the parking lot like it was a cell phone.

I beg them to leave her alone because her mind could not deal with them like I could. They did leave her the next day because they had better fish to fry like me because that same day I went to the hospital because I was half dead from no sleep. They did their best to try and get her to slap me. I could hear them telling her to do it. I would see her shake her head no.

This is Satan himself doing this to me. I know when he enters me because there is a perfume smell with him and it is a loud smell. He does not control me all the time he has others that do it most of the time.

It is very hard for me now to be around my family because of all the negative thoughts. It is like something is doing its best to control my mind and I fight it tooth and nail. I do know it is a matter of time before they kill me I just don't know when it will be.

I always wanted to know for sure if there was a ghost I found more than what I was looking for SATAN.

The story I am telling you is the truth and is no lie you can go to Ufogeek.com too see what I did but I tell you now don't play with it or your life will be in a living hell like mine. It will be your worst nightmare come true.

I can tell you for sure there is a Hell and there is a Heaven.

God bless you all.

I would like to thank everyone for your help... I still live in fear of them and they make me suffer as much as they can put on me. They tell me I'm going to hell no matter what I do. I went to Church for the first time in years hoping it would help. I could hear them even in Church tell me not in my house leave but they was telling me this before I ever went to church. I feel so hopeless sometimes. 

They make me feel like everything I do is wrong I think horrible things about my family. My grandmother is dying and I try to pray for her and I slap her while I try to pray for her. It is the worst stuff ever I know this can't be me because I love her and my family very much like I said before I hate to get around any of my family anymore because of the bad thoughts they put in my head. I was never like this before that Ghost Box. I never had a bad thought to my family ever. The worst was when they had me on the couch for 2 days. They put my feet on fire but to where it did not burn my skin but was very hot and stuck me with something in my back that was sharp and it went next to my heart. The pain was bad but it could have been worse I guess and they was talking about killing me this big sounding voice. The others would tell me to shut up and listen. 

It was like a Nightmare from hell but I was awake. Then they said cuff him and they put something on my arm that I could not see but I could tell it was there it had weight to it. This is very real what happen to me I tell you the truth. I fear for my life everyday and they make me feel as there is no hope. I have asked Jesus to help me but they are still with me. They tell me I will be a Captive for Satan. They tell me they are God and even said they were Christ, they tell me so many things that I'm total lost. 

The only person that I can feel good around is my wife and when she not around I just feel horrible. They stick me in the head all the time and legs and all over for that matter. I would like to say this I'm not crazy not nuts I have a good mind or so I did before that ghost box. I open a can of worms on me that I have no idea how to deal with it. I use to laugh at people who would talk about Ghost. Well like I said before how wrong I was because I found more than a ghost I found hell and I can tell you for 100% sure it is very real and it is only a matter of time before they kill me. 

I would like to say to everyone that I'm sorry it took so long to get back on here and talk about it but I'm possessed and I can't think to good now days. I will say this I fight them every day of my life now and I'm losing the battle. They are just too strong and I just hope I can keep my sanity. They tell me I'm a true devil but I know I'm a good person and like I told them I will keep up the fight for as long as I live.

God Bless Everyone and thanks for your support

http://www.yourghoststories.com/real-ghost-story.php?story=6627

The following is an account from another poster:

Jerseyguy

Hey everyone,

just thought I'd share a little of my story, hopefully maybe, it'll help someone avoid the same fate

I have had an on/off interest in the paranormal for many years, but last winter I decided to "go active" for the first time, I started experimenting with EVP. I didn't capture anything on my first few attempts and was about to give up but for some reason I kept trying.

After about 2 weeks of no results, I captured several EVPs on a single recording, they were intelligent responses too. This captured my curiosity (unfortunately looking back now), so I kept recording, actually it got to the point where it was becoming an everyday thing, but I started to notice voices on practically every recording I did.

They were very faint at first and I had to listen to the recordings over and over a few times to make out much of what was being said (though I'd occasionally get louder ones with a precursor "popping sound"). As they days went by the faint voices started to come into focus so to speak where I could hear them much better. I became so good at this that I started to develop a dialogue with these spirits.

I would get names, when and where they lived...etc....etc...
to my surprise, many of these spirits claimed to be the spirits of people that I had either known or knew of, eventually I came to believe I was speaking to the spirits of some friends and family members who has passed away. I fell for it all HOOK LINE AND SINKER.

Everything seemed fine, pleasant, benevolent for about a month and a half, then I started to get some not so pleasant voices showing up in my recordings (threats, insults, profanity, etc...) It started off slight, but seemed to get worse by the day, until it got so bad that it practically came to dominate my recordings, but the "benevolent" voices were still there as well, so I kept at it, then one day, while I was at my work, near a running fan, all of a sudden, very loud and clear, I started to hear these same menacing voices harassing me from over the fan noise. I was hearing this, just with my ears now. I was freaked out to say the least, so I stopped doing EVP right then and there, but it was too late already, in the weeks that followed, I increasingly had more incidents of hearing these menacing voices, it was often, though not always over some type of background noise or carrier sound and they say (I believe the spirits use the steady source of sound to enhance a voice, same concept as using white noise when recording).

Another thing started to happen. I started to feel physical sensations as I lay in bed at night trying to sleep, it was usually a weird vibrating sensation, or the feeling of a finger literally coming up out of the mattress and poking me in the lower back, getting to sleep started to become a problem

Things escalated like this for a while, then literally over the course of a single morning early last April, things just exploded to an extreme level, the voices were everywhere, non-stop 24/7 day and night, they were much more intense now too, some had this weird bass tone effect, where when they spoke I could literally feel the ground shaking. The physical attacks also became much more intense: sometimes I would feel intense stinging or biting sensations.

To put it mildly I became a complete vegetable for many weeks, it became hard to function at my job, anything. I called out of work allot and just lay in bed staring at the ceiling listening to this onslaught of tormenting voices all day and night and the voices would constantly play mind games, they would claim to be demons and Satan one day, pissed off human spirits another day, once one of them claimed to be Jesus, they kept switching the story line.

They would constantly harass me about my "sins" and literally try and psychologically break me down, it was a nightmare I find hard to put into words. A few months later, I posted my story and a paranormal forum like this and someone reached out to me through PM that also went through it himself; he gave me a ton of insight into what this was and what was happening to me, he helped me to get back to a somewhat state of normalcy.

Then I found others still and received allot of help from them.

I have so much more to tell, but this post is already long enough, I'll come back to it, but I've found some common traits in all of the accounts I found of this.

I'd say it definitely has to do with some type of sensitivity that certain people have to spirits/spiritual influence in all of our accounts, we all pretty much got hit with this fairly quickly after being involved with spirit communication, usually a matter of weeks or months, and we all started making allot of "contact" ie: were able to start getting allot of EVPs fairly quickly as well.

So for anyone just getting started with EVP...first....DON'T DO IT !!!!...I'd say, but if you do, if you start getting captures quickly and almost too easily, that's not a good sign: you're at greater risk of getting this spirit attachment/obsession nightmare situation and once you get it, it's not easy to get rid of (I still haven't), but that's a whole other story in itself.

Here's some other accounts of this I found: (and I keep finding more) also keep in mind that different people with different spiritual/religious beliefs are going to view the situation differently, but the common factor is hearing voices and physical attacks after engaging in spirit communication.

Alan July 26, 2012 at 1:11 PM |
I am also hearing voices, for 3,5 years now, after playing with EVP, I can tell you they are spirits, but not the dead, they are demons pretending to be people.

I also was on Seroquel, but haloperidol helped a little less better but without side effects, now I stopped my medications and just ignore the voices.

1.steve August 2, 2012 at 11:01 PM |
Hey Alan, I as well was into the paranormal and was listening to EVP’s and also meditating a lot before I started hearing nasty, condemning and threatening voices that now bombard me 24-7. I am now on 6mg of Invega and it helps, but can’t go off because I’ve tried and the voices are still there. I wish they had a support group around me but they don’t. Thanks Steve.

Hi, I am new here. I feel the need to share my story, since I have never heard of anyone else who has voices brought on in the way I did.

I went my entire life never hearing voices, until I bought a digital tape recorder. I had watched many of those ghost hunting shows where they caught voices or EVP on a tape recorder, and when I tried it at home, I was shocked to pick up voices both in my home, and in my backyard. One voice from my yard gave a deep hello in return to my own, which was clearly audible, that even friends were able to hear, there were other voices people could make out, but were not able to tell exactly what they were saying. However when I listened with headphones I was able to make out a lot of what they were saying, and it was very eerie.

I was alone when I recorded. Needless to say I was shocked, and I continued to record, even though the voices on tape were telling me to stop, I kept delving searching for answers. One night as I asked some questions, instead of hearing them back on tape, they answered me directly without the tape recorder. From then on for 3 solid months night and day, voices were speaking to me constantly

These voices harassed me every waking minute. And soon everything had a voice, cars that drove by were talking. My air conditioner would talk, my microwave etc.. And there was this sound of a helicopter by house only during the day, and never at night.

To make a long story short I was eventually hospitalized and given medication, and thankfully the voices went away. I definitely see the value of medication, and realize its benefits, but why did a tape recorder bring it on? And how did I manage to capture their voices on tape? Could it have been a form of Paranormal Psychosis?

Hi,
I'm new to the board but I didn't know where to turn for what I'm experiencing.
Like many on the network, I have been hearing multiple voices threatening my life constantly and tormenting me 24/7 since 1/1/14, but mine goes beyond just voices. I just woke up and began hearing voices. First day the voices made me see demonic face patterns on walls and patterned surfaces. That stopped after the first day. Since then, they have been giving me all kinds of physical torment from pulsating head pains and stomach aches to anything you can possibly name except external cuts or bruises. They can inflict pokes, itches, scratches, and pain of all sorts on any parts of the body including the eyes. I have no idea what this is but it's not just psychological. I have no history of mental illness and am straight as an arrow as far as drugs and alcohol.

I believe this may have started when I recorded myself sleeping about 10 months ago and listened to it for 2 weeks. Then I stopped. I heard voices in the recording of all sorts when amplified. Didn't think much of it. Then on 1/1, I woke up with voices in bed. I am new to paranormal and considered this to be Electronic Voice Phenomenon (EVP). I am thinking that I may have opened a portal when I heard the voices in the recording.

This is so bizarre beyond words.

I am not even religious or Christian but the initial story they would play on me was that they were Succubus, Lucifer, and Jehovah. That lasted for 3 days or so and now they just constantly keep saying that they are my demons and they are essentially controlling my body functions to some extent. Their voices are 24/7.

I have so much more to say, but too much to type out. They use the slightest emotional change in me and amplify the side effects into physical symptoms. Like slightest of anxiety you might not normally notice is amplified and I would get physical side effect symptoms as if I was having massive anxiety. They are constantly causing pressure sensations in the head.

TY for the reply. I'm afraid that I am very certain this is more than psychological. They actually not only initiate conversation but they also do cause physical sensations symptoms such as muscle spasms, pokes, itches, and pain anywhere they want. This imo is supernatural/paranormal in nature. This is something probably nobody really knows because we assume it's psychological. In some case, they are truly psychological, but my case is one like maybe few others that also experience direct physical attacks.

I am a very extreme level-headed person at age of 47 with no past mental history and even almost no physical history. I barely take aspirin and that was decades ago. I was in top physical and mental condition prior to this happening to me.

EVP seemed to have opened some crazy portal to something that always was there. I do not know what they are but they are real.

I have been dealing with this now for almost 3 months. All I can say for sure now is that it is not psychological. I believe many people are experiencing what is supernatural phenomenon, an unknown entity or entities or you might call it God and demons. My voices aren't just voices for me, but also physical attacks beyond wildest imagination. 

The entities control every cell of my body and tell me that they are demons or God to punish me for my past sins. I believe in a creator but know little about religious aspect except some Christianity. I am literally at the mercy of these beings and they get me to try to do what is consciously the right things but in an extreme weird way that I can't really comprehend. They want me to pay for my sins in my life before my death and that what I do now will determine what happens to me when I die. This is just so far beyond comprehension or to even describe to words, only those who actually have experienced this will understand. 

However, I don't believe there are many people experiencing the total physical control I am experiencing. They control my breathing, smell, touch, sight, you name it. I don't think there is anything anyone can do at this point. My parents and friends can't understand nor do I want to explain to them why these things are here as I don't really want to talk about my sins to them. I don't believe that my sins are all that terrible, but apparently the laws in the afterlife is different as to what accounts as extreme case of committing heavy amount of sin.

My only suggestion to people is that there is something out there, whether you call it God or not, someone/something is watching your action. You are not alone in your life. Do the right things and think about what you do in life because it's easy to think that some things aren't bad because it doesn't hurt others. There are things that hurt you/your mind and body and stay away from doing these things.

I believe those who don't commit a lot of sin will not get the physical attacks. They might just get voices.

Good luck in life.