Four words that could have saved the world.....

What If I’m Wrong?

I write this as a bit of a belated curiosity or postscript to the human race and what could have been if every human being had had this idea drummed into them at an early age until it became an instant habit of thought.

I’m afraid this information is a little bit late, much too late to save Earth and the human race which seems to have piled error upon atrocity for thousands upon thousands of years until we the present occupants of this planet find ourselves no wiser than we did at the start. Sure we have mobile phones and air-conditioning but along with that we have an Earth which we have conspicuously stripped of much of its bio-diversity, as long as a list of human sins and horrors which no imagined hell beyond could equal. 

The Human race seems to have made the Earth its own private hell. Whether through the annals of the Romans, of the inquisition, of Communism or of depleted uranium and white phosphorous used on Iraqi children. Combine this with what I consider a likely extinction level event unfolding in Fukushima and we have an inevitable picture that humanity’s best days are behind it. 

But what if people had done things different? What if Hitler had been instilled with the habit: “What if I’m wrong?” He didn’t have to believe he was wrong, but at least the possibility of entertaining a doubt would certainly have possibly saved the world a great deal of trouble..

What if Tony Blair too had thought ‘what if I’m wrong?’ we would have been spared the Iraq war, deformed nuclear mutant babies and the growth of ISIS.

What if ISIS themselves had the thought ‘what if I’m wrong?’ mind controlled into them by some benign brain washing expert. What if we all had this idea ‘What if I’m wrong?’

But the funny thing is, for whatever reason of human psychology, this is the thought we all seem to experience least. 

Is it because something about animal nature is not about reflection but pure will and action?

Obviously if a cat catching a bird where to handicap itself by asking ‘what if I’m wrong’ about this jump to catch that bird, he would likely starve in due course, but then cats haven’t been given the same kind of leading role in directing the fate and future of a whole planet and all its inhabitants.

What if the Japanese government of the post war had just held back a moment before they decided to allow the Americans to build nuclear power plants along the coastline of a highly geologically unstable island?

What if they had asked ‘What if we’re wrong about this?’. The answer of course we now know, if you’re wrong then you will likely poison the whole Pacific ocean wiping out the largest biological domain on planet Earth, its primary source of oxygen and possibly destroying Earth itself as a life sustaining environment at some point in the future. This answer would probably have given them pause for thought and they would wisely have decided not to be such bloody muppets.

But they didn’t. And humans never do. They never stop for a moment and ask themselves whether they might be wrong and about to commit a major fuck up.

And this in essence, is the tragedy of the rather short story of the human race.

I wonder if the cats will make a better job of it.

As a writer I used to have this great hope that my small ideas and projects would one day come to fruition and be printed and bound and would form part of the great depository of human knowledge and human experience. Now I no longer see any future for humanity, there will be no books or anything in the future since books and knowledge require that the primary need of basic human survival are mastered and the way things are on Earth I rather fear that very soon the human race will be reduced to that condition of day to day survival in a toxic deadly environment where no food will grow and the fish will all be dead or radioactive.

But I could be wrong.

Feminist Gorgon Witches of the Apocalypse

Human Civilisation....what an old fashioned idea.

If it’s a war they want, they’ve got one. This particular writer is taking up arms…well, opening up MS Word, in defence of MEN and society as a whole against the straggly bedraggled feminist witches of the apocalypse.

Such creatures tend to be incubated in the golden summer days of a contented society with hope for the future and they are patronized and placated with university research grants which keeps them quiet and only able to pester and abuse the poor men who happen to enter their university domains and make the mistake, as I did, of studying English Literature and being at the mercy of an insane and over educated elite club of Marxist Feminist Witches.

Dianne Purkiss, Professor of Witchcraft at Keble College Oxford.

However now the golden summer days of human civilization seem to be at an end and to paraphrase the Protocols of Zion they have unleashed their long incubated army of feminists upon a culture in which men and women generally got on quite well, fell in love and hell, even got married and had babies and stuff.

Now, war is upon you, whether you want it or not. The massed ranks of unhygienic femi-witches who celebrate their independence by disdaining showers or shampoo are released from their academic holding pens and the obscurity of the lecture hall, to fall upon the world and prey upon society, draining human gender relationships of meaning or any chance of happiness.

If you are a man then you are in the sights merely for being a man and creating civilization. Everything you have done was always to oppress the wimins and now the reckoning is due. The witches are abroad, casting their spells in the press and assaulting reason and logic for  ‘foul is fair and fair is foul’ just like ‘Fat is beautiful and beautiful is male objectification.’ 

The hordes of broken women, recently empowered by feminism and heavily subsidized by the hidden hand which has waged war on Western civilization, are those whose ugliness and poor character, in a sane world would be rightfully disdained and probably relegated to gardening jobs where they can only inflict their bad dispositions on weeds and the slugs in their cabbages, but in our strange Back to the Future Alternate 1985 world where everything has suddenly all gone wrong, and they are now the new intellectual elite.

Where's the DeLorean? we need to fix this shit!

They have been given the keys to the kingdom of knowledge and they have burned down the house and instead erected an altar to their own unwashed vaginas and only those who have ritually castrated themselves with Marxist Social Theory will be allowed to enter.

An English Literature student at a UK University, or a male Guardian journalist.

One such eschewer of shampoo and reason is Joan Smith. Perhaps once, in Ms Smith’s family there was once a man who made something at a hot iron forge, perhaps horse shoes or perhaps the man mended a plough. Doubtless the man whose name was once Smith served a useful and constructive purpose to the world around him. 

But the fruit has fallen far from the tree and Ms Joan Smith is nothing but a very bad apple, all acid and bitterness. Something which ought to have fallen on stony ground and been allowed to rot quietly away into the mire. But now, she has been given a rich firmament and her bitterness has been watered with years and years of secret delusions.

Likely from the Frankfurt school who once gave her a nice stipend for writing an essay and she realized that being bitter and foul can be a good career move for someone with no discernible talent or ability to provide anything useful or constructive to society.

Ms Smith’s career is built on nurturing discord, discontent and destruction. Destruction of female happiness and the severing of the ancient human bond between men and women. Along with a fascination with witches, atheism and Marxism, an ideology which has so far cost up to 100,000,000 human lives. 

Now women under the spell of feminism have been rendered unhappy and those men who have realized that they no longer need to be sitting ducks for abuse can go their own way. The MGTOW men figure if women have all turned into mad feminists who want to castrate us mentally and literally then why not learn the guitar instead?

With the growth of the internet and the devious trickery of AMP (Accelerated Mobile Pages) which specifically harvests obscure stories from Marxist rags like the Guardian and The Independent which ought, due to the diminishing readership of print editions of these journals, be consigned to becoming  a wet patch in the rabbit hutch of some social worker’s house and his bearded partner who works in advertising, but alas, the internet has deviously brought up all this cat-litter journalism to be endless churned over and over by the power of the internet.

The Trump Show...... Men Love it.

So now whenever I want to check in on my favourite US soap opera: President Trump, I have to be exposed to the views of bedraggled harpies fresh from the blasted Heath assaulting my senses with their snarling misandry and lack of hair-care programme. I hate the Guardian and I hate Feminists, witches, Marxists and Atheists...but I am rather interested in the Trump Show, so why whenever I type Trump into my mobile Google search am I exposed to the views of Marxist Feminist Atheist witches with bad hair? I don't care about you. Leave me alone! Damn you AMP.

Poor hair care example from history.

Joan Smith: Gorgon.

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2017/feb/19/donald-trump-fragile-male-ego

Trump’s fragile male ego craves the dangerous drug of adulation

It is an alarming insight into how Trump (though, not just Trump) operates. Few politicians, no matter how thin-skinned, have displayed such neediness nor demanded such displays of unconditional love from their supporters. Neediness is not usually considered attractive in men who like to be thought of as tough, but Trump is rewriting the rulebook on masculinity.

 Joan Smith

What concerns me about Feminist Zombie witches of the Apocalypse with poor hair care, is not only that they pontificate on matter of femininity as if they own every woman's gender, but now it seems they are branching out and telling men about being a man, as well as engaging in tiresome gender based attacks of smearing Trump with some kind of sexist gender based attack.

When did you ever read a male writer having a go at a famous woman claiming she was suffering from 'fragile female ego problems' and then goes on to tell the woman what a woman should be?

You don't. You won't hear this, never. Because this man would be labeled a misogynist and not allowed anywhere near a newspaper. He might live in the internet and frequent websites like MGTOW.COM, but be assured that society would be duly mobilised to track such a man down and use any and all power if could to discredit and attack him.

I wonder to what extent literal extent the schizophrenic priestesses of the old mystery religion, attended by a priesthood of self castrated ‘males’ mewling and rolling around like neutered pussy cats, describes the paradigm of this particular author and her readership. History repeats itself, although admittedly, it tends to have a wardrobe change. So what were once the witches and priestess of the mysteries are now female journalists and academics, exhorting the degrees of their mystery, the outer portico or blue-lodge degrees of which are atheism, Feminism and a little bit of Marxism for good measure. Yet what lies beneath? What really happens in the minds of these people, because it's beginning to more and more resemble mental illness.

This is what the End of  Civilisation Looks Like.

Post Script:

http://www.breitbart.com/big-government/2017/02/24/witches-unite-cast-binding-spell-trump-followers/amp/

by THOMAS D. WILLIAMS, PH.D. 24 Feb 2017

A group of witches is attempting to use black magic to neutralize U.S. President Donald Trump by casting a “binding spell” to prevent him from governing.

The “mass spell to bind Donald Trump” will be performed at midnight on every waning crescent moon beginning Friday, February 24, “until Donald Trump is removed from office,” the group’s website states.

The mass ritual will allegedly be repeated again March 26, April 24, May 23, June 21 (the summer solstice), July 21, and August 19.

The spell also invokes evil on “those who abet” Trump, which would seem to appear to cover his staff and political nominees, and perhaps the millions who voted for him as well.

The spell involves such items as an unflattering photo of Trump, a tower tarot card, a tiny stub of an orange candle, a pin or small nail, water, salt, a feather and an ashtray.

“This binding spell is open source, and may be modified to fit your preferred spiritual practice or magical system,” the site explains. What is critical is “the simultaneity of the working” as well as “the mass energy of participants.”

“Some lodges/covens are doing a variation of this as a group working, while a number of solitary practitioners are planning to connect and livestream via Facebook, Twitter, and other social media,” the site explains.

In reaction, a number of Christian groups and individuals have promised to pray for Mr. Trump, asking God’s blessings on his work and on the nation.

The witches’ spell involves a lengthy incantation, calling on spirits and “demons of the infernal realms” to bind Donald J. Trump so that “he may fail utterly, that he may do no harm.”

Calling on the spirits to work the same harm on “all those who enable his wickedness and those whose mouths speak his poisonous lies,” the hex beseeches the spirits to “bind them in chains, bind their tongues, bind their works, bind their wickedness.”

The climax of the spell involves a crescendo “with increasing passion” ending by blowing out the orange candle while “visualizing Trump blowing apart into dust or ash.”

Information from an alleged former Illuminati Insider at Uni High School Illinois.

DISCLAIMER:

Please find here information from what is claimed to be an Illuminati insider. This correspondence was sent to me and also posted over on my forum. This gentleman was attending what he called an Illuminati high school at the time of writing and his experiences relate to this specific environment. He appears to be talking about his experiences at University Laboratory High School Illinois.

I personally cannot vouch for the accuracy of this information and as the writer himself suspects, some of this is likely deliberately intended to mislead the Illuminati member, after all, you can’t mind control people with the truth. 

You as the reader must decide for yourself whether you think the following story is true, I merely print it here as a curiosity and something to consider. 

However there are parts of his story which shed a light on some of the mysteries of the Illuminati such as his reference to sexual activity as a way for members to fend off the development of schizophrenia. I can also confirm the use of trance audio techniques as this is what I experienced in France on a government residential training course which was a cover to join the French Illuminati.

Several sources have repeated that the Illuminati is limited to 6,000 members worldwide. This could be true but personally I do not believe it since I have met so many members of the Illuminati on my worldwide travels that statistically this would not have been possible if there were only 6,000 members, and also in my opinion a group having only 6,000 members would unlikely to be able to exert the power over the world which they current have. 

The actual number of Illuminati members is, in my opinion far far higher, reaching into the millions, since I would classify anyone having psychic connection to the Luciferian hive-mind as ‘Illuminati’ which I think is a far more useful definition since these are the most powerful agents of Lucifer in this world at the present time.

On a side note, I typed in 'Illuminati High school' to see if I could find anything to corroborate his story and found this link to the Unicef (United Nations children's charity organisation) website. 

https://www.unicefusa.org/supporters/volunteers/illuminati-high-school

We aim to educate, advocate and fundraise on behalf of the world's children at Illuminati High School.

Here is the correspondence: 

There's a lot I could reveal, because I've been associated with the Illuminati.

Perhaps I shall start with what the Illuminati told me were the 3 words you should never say.

The Really Bad Words (according to the Illuminati):
1) Theocrat or the Theocrats
2) Pythagoras or Pythagoras Lucifer (the name of the Head of the Illuminati)
3) Illuminati (sort of the obvious word you're never supposed to say if you're in the Illuminati)

I must admit that I'm totally confused about the nature of reality. But---I do know for certain that the mainstream story of how reality works is utterly false and not merely false in good faith out of ignorance, but deliberately false due to manipulation by spiritual powers. So---please take everything I write with a grain of salt (with skepticism); and also note that the Illuminati tell all sorts of contradictory tales to their own members---so I may have been tricked by them. With that disclaimer.....here's my rough view of reality (or at least one version of history).

Around 2500 years ago, there was a Greek man named Pythagoras Lucifer (who is known to history only as Pythagoras), was exceptionally intelligent---reportedly with an IQ over 300, making him possibly the most intelligent man who ever lived. He went to Egypt and learned from the Egyptian priesthood about the nature of the spiritual realm. And he acquired wealth and he went around recruiting the finest minds of the ancient world, which became the Pythagorean Order, which would evolve into the Illuminati.

According to very weird people I've met (who claimed to be angels), the Illuminati were originally a very noble organization of genuine do-gooders. But somewhere along the way the Illuminati became Satanic. I will have much to say about Satanism---it's not what most people think, it's not just evil, it's monopolizing power---it's about full-spectrum power, monopolizing both the power of good and the power of evil.

Who are these "Theocrats" that are a bad word to say? My understanding is this: that in the spirit realm there are numerous exploitative wicked spirits who use religious imagery to trick and capture human souls in the afterlife. So, effectively, all religions on Earth are de facto evil---because the images of religious leaders, whether Jesus or Buddha or angels, are projected by evil spirits in order to gain power over humans in the afterlife. I was told that simply using the word "Theocrat" tends to attract the attention of evil spirits. So---perhaps this might be a word to use with caution.

Anyway, based on what I was told, Earth is in nearly the worst possible situation. And the majority of human souls are captured in the afterlife and end up having extremely unpleasant experiences---AKA Hell.

The Illuminati view themselves as the good guys, the heroes, who are trying to save the world from an evil organization that does rule the world---called variously the Archons or the Overlords. And the Archons are known by the number 333. Whereas the Illuminati are known by the number 666. Anyway, the Illuminati say that they have a "peace treaty" with the Archons, which limits the size of each organization to 6000 members.

But---here's the huge problem that I may be unique in discovering----the Illuminati seem to work hand-in-hand with their so-called enemies. One of the secret Illuminati dogmas (which I'm not sure that most Illuminati members consciously know about) is that God is Satan and Satan is God; and Good is Evil and Evil is Good----this is quite literally what I was taught. So---it seems to me that the world is ruled by a two-winged organization, which I call the Illuminati-Archons, where one side is directly evil (the 333 side) and the other side pretends to be good (the 666 side). And so we are trapped in perpetual duality---the essence of Satanism, forever war, forever suffering.

Perhaps I should add that---there are true angels (I would call members of the Illuminati as false angels or false-enlightened souls), and true angels are working to overthrow both the Illuminati and the Archons. And, all of this seems to be coming to a head rather soon---which is partially the reason you're reading this information now.

On Bloodlines and Reincarnation
On the bloodlines subject---I've wondered about the concept of bloodlines. While in the actual Illuminati (albeit quite briefly and without the standard training), I never heard the word "bloodline" or the idea of ancestry being of any importance.

Here's my skeptical thought: I've doubted the whole existence of Illuminati bloodlines. My thinking on this is: the concept of hereditary membership of the Illuminati seems like something that an outsider speculating on the Illuminati would think---that the Illuminati would be similar to hereditary wealth and power families.

Everyone in the Illuminati has reincarnated multiple times. The average age of the souls of Illuminati members is probably over 500 years old. Personally, I'm on my 5th incarnation, I was originally from the late 1700's. Reincarnation gives a person enormous cognitive advantages. When you hear about young children who speak 5 languages and play the violin and complete college textbooks at age 14.....this is likely a reincarnated person. Personally, I spoke German for a while as a young child, with no exposure to the German language, because in my previous life I was German.

Another interesting feature of reincarnation is that people who reincarnate tend to look quite different from their biological families---to the point where an outsider might ask whether the reincarnated person was adopted. So---there is some type of interplay between the soul and DNA expression.

About Hormones & Psychology
Here's another secret about the Illuminati---they inject adolescents with some type of substance, possibly a hormone or growth factors or something related to DNA or brain chemistry. At the Illuminati-run high school I went to, some of the freshmen boys (12 to 13 year olds....most skip a year), were given an injection of an unknown substance. I was one of the boys who got the injection. The cover story was that it was an immunization or something. It was injected by an Israeli female doctor, who flew from Israel to the USA just to give the injections. I heard a rumor that the injectable was extremely expensive at something like $100 000 per shot and that it had to be custom made for each person receiving it and that it was manufactured in Israel. This was back in the 1990's.

Another big big big secret that the Illuminati know about is that the age of the loss of virginity is crucially important to the development of a child's body and mind. Here's the key secret: the human body is intended to start having sex soon after puberty---as in age 11 or 12 or 13 for boys. And the first time a child has sex is crucial to a cascade of changes to the body and psychology.

I was told that studies had been done on what makes a person successful---and that the findings were that nearly all the great geniuses and super-successful people had lost their virginity at a very young age. And a related secret is---if a person loses their virginity much after puberty, say at age 16 or 18 years old, then that person cannot ever hope to be very successful in life.

Also related to age of virginity loss is: IQ, EQ (Energy Quotient), and height and build and appearance. If one loses his or her virginity younger, they tend to grow taller, have a better build, a higher IQ, and higher Energy (and libido) levels throughout life.

So---the Illuminati strive to make sure that adolescents lose their virginity as young as possible. Age 11 is considered a good age. Meanwhile, of course, society tells the masses---who could rightly be called slaves or drones or peons, the nonsense advice of "don't have sex until marriage." And this deliberately awful advice has the effect of rendering the majority of people too low in EQ and IQ to ever threaten the elites.

Essentially, Western Civilization is a pyramid, and part of that pyramid is due to the "bell curve" of EQ and IQ scores----which is, in part, deliberately maintained as a curve by the people at the very top of the social hierarchy.

On Psychological Trauma and Mind Control
So, here's where I'll reveal another major major major secret (good grammar be damned 3 majors are deserved here); at my Illuminati-run high school, all of the students are put through a form of mind control that involved extreme psychological trauma.

One of the main reasons why I quit the Illuminati (and yes, you should wonder at how I'm still alive---I'll explain later on), is that I remembered the mind control that I was put under at age 13 at my Illuminati high school.

....But 1st some background on trance
So....before I can explain mind control, I should mention the existence of psychological trance. It's possible to put a person into a state of psychological trance---in which the person seems sort of zombified, or sleeping while awake, passive, under the control of an outside voice. I suspect that psychological trance is actually used by the US government broadly on American middle school children---but I shall explain this later. The gist of trance is something like this: there are certain combinations of words, sounds, and pictures, that will put an exposed person into a trance state.

There are audios that, if you put headphones on a person, and make them listen to a 2 minute (roughly) trance-coded audio, then the person will go into a trance state and will become open to being controlled by another person. As an interesting aside, there are actually criminals who use trance in order to put victims into a trance state then command the victims to hand over financial information---I know this because I luckily (or synchronistically) met such a criminal, who told me about her scheme, and also told me that there's a secret law code dealing with crimes of magic (as trance induction is considered a form of magic) that deals an automatic death penalty to any criminal using magic. I was also told that there's a secret US Department of Magic that deals with trance and magic and so on. And yes---I know I'm into strange territory---but I'm just reporting what I've been told. 3 different unrelated people have told me that there's a US Department of Magic.

Satanic Mind Control on Subfreshmen
So....here's the nasty side of my revelations. I think it's good to cultivate a sense of humor about this world, because some aspects of the Illuminati are so very nightmarish---worse than any horror movie. And when you realize that these are the rulers of the world.....it can lead to depression, anger, and despair.

----On a nuisance note, just now, as I write these words, I just received an indicator that someone is watching me via remote viewing.....which is rather annoying, but as I'll explain later on, whenever you even talk about the Illuminati, or you're about to do something that annoys them, they somehow seem to find out about it. It seems we are in quite a prison-----

But---to continue my revelations anyway (you may want to save a copy of everything I write, and even make a hard copy print-out....as the server might "mysteriously" delete all my messages).

At Illuminati High school, there's a 5th year called "subfreshmen" who are not quite freshmen and are considered sort of pre-students, a sort of evaluation year---where the Illuminati decide if they really want you or not. I should probably add that: nobody at the high school ever uses the word Illuminati---which is taboo, if you say "Illuminati" you'll get lectured. So the majority of the students have no idea that the Illuminati even exists. Around 10% or so of the students are in the actual Illuminati---and they tend to be very quiet and very serious and they don't reveal secrets to the regular students.

At Illuminati High, the mind control program is partially concealed by the PE, Physical Education program. There is a gymnasium where one of the PE teachers is actually an Illuminati mind controller, which is actually called a "Healer" in the Illuminati job-classification system. The Illuminati have just 3 archetypal job positions: Fighter, Thinker, or Healer. I was a fighter---which is partially why I'm still alive (as I'll eventually explain).

Anyway, here's what happens to the subfreshmen at Illuminati High school.
There are approximately 66 subfreshmen, and after the mind control there are approximately 60 remaining freshmen. I don't know what happens to the 10%---but I think they may well be dead (as the bodybags part of my story will suggest).

Each year, during the Spring, each of the subfreshmen is told that they must come to a scheduled "physical evaluation" at the gymnasium. And the gymnasium is mostly empty, strangely empty, when they do these "evaluations" which are actually mind control. The gymnasium itself at Illuminati High school has a large oval-shaped indoor running track which sits above a lower-level gymnastics area. And the "healer"---which I'll just call Ms.Programmer from now on, conducts the mind control sessions at a table set up on the running track.

Before you go to the "evaluation" sessions, you're told to evacuate your bowels. You're led up to the running track....and then my story gets horrible. The first thing that happens is---you are stripped totally naked. And there are two burly thugs---who are actually Archon (Illuminati) fighters, they are present to force you to comply. This won't make sense to most people---but the two fighters present were probably 333 Archon fighters, and not 666 Illuminati fighters, because their auras were extremely dark. 333 fighters (which is, as I've discovered a wing of the Illuminati) have black auras, as evil murderers do. 666 fighters have bright auras. So, this is part of why I realized that the Illuminati 666 is actually extremely evil---because they work with 333 fighters (who the 666 Illuminati claim are the "real bad guys" who rule the world that the "good" 666 Illuminati are fighting against). Sorry if this is confusing---it would take a lot of background knowledge to begin to explain the Illuminati.

Anyway---during the mind control session, Ms.Programmer puts you into a trance, and makes you extremely frightened. All sorts of mysterious psychology. She reads something like nonsense poems that have some sort of psychological effect. Stuff like "imagine a butterfly on the wind, imagine how graceful the wind feels, imagine a beautiful baby with the butterfly landing on his nose, now imagine a tree being sawn with a sharp metal saw, now imagine the baby being sawn in half, now imagine how the baby's blood spreads in a pool...." weird stuff like that. I specifically remember the cutting a baby in half part---the rest is my impression of the gist of it. There were all sorts of just random words in the "mind control poetry" reading, like "cherry tree, number 529, godzilla stomping, a lightswitch" just random-seeming word combinations.

Anyway....Ms.Programmer put me in a trance. And I remember one of the tests she did on me was to ask me to hold my hand up---and to my horror my hand seemed to be under her perfect control. I had no volitional ability to not do what she told me. If she said "put both hands up" my hands shot up---without my moving them. It felt as if I had become a prisoner in my own body. And I was completely terrified.

Anyway---on with the horror. Ms. Programmer wielded a very scary looking dagger. And she said that she enjoyed cutting off penises and that she had a jar at home of boy's penises in formaldehyde. And she said that she would love to add my penis to her collection if I failed the test that I was about to be given. She held the knife to my genitals and also to my throat. She also said that she and her two fighters had just mopped up all the blood with towels of the last person to fail the test. And she showed me a bloody towel.

Ms.Programmer pointed at several body bags that were stacked off to the side. I believe there were 3 body bags, that looked like they contained presumably bodies. She also told me that there were demons present in the room that would carry me straight to Hell if Ms.Programmer killed me.

I was mostly utterly terrified, and just trying to survive. I remember trying not to wet the chair because I was trembling and spasming in terror.

Anyway---the "test" part is a bit blurry. But here are the basics. Ms.Programmer said that she had been through this horror herself many times, and that she had been through far worse than what I was being put through. She said that Satan was God and the sooner you acknowledge that Satan is all powerful the better off you'll be.

Ms. Programmer said that Satan was watching in the room at that very moment, and that Satan personally watched all of the test sessions given to the subfreshmen. Part of the "test" was that I was forced to say various very-evil feeling statements. Here's some of what I remember being forced to say: "God is Satan and Satan is God"
"Good is evil and evil is good"
"I accept Satan as my father"
"[Ms.Programmer] is my mother"
And Ms.Programmer said that I had been successfully castrated. And she said that "Satan has all the penises." [As an aside....I know this is bizarre---it must have something to do with psychology and symbolism that I don't understand at all].
During the "test" I was told that I had better put all of my might into saying and believing everything I was told to recite. And that if she didn't think I was putting my whole self into the test that she would castrate me and then cut my throat. I don't remember all of the phrases---I was terrified, but it was all sorts of nightmarish garbage.

Anyway, I was told that I had failed the test. And then Ms.Programmer went with all-white eyes (the mark of 3rd eye trance), and she returned and said that I had been barely been granted as passing the test, on the authority of some powerful figure (possibly Pythagoras---the head of the Illuminati), and that normally I would be sent to Hell, but I had squeaked by.

The last part of the mind-control session was about some sort of command words. I don't clearly remember any of them. But there was another reading of random-sounding words. And, interestingly, there was what she called "subaudibles." I don't remember clearly if she had some sort of audio playback device or not. But part of it  had her saying something like this "you're going to freeze whenever you hear this"....and "now I'm going to play the subaudible, you won't hear anything." So---my takeaway from this part was that there's something called a "subaudible" command word. And apparently it may be a command word that is played at a decibel level that's below the threshold for conscious hearing. And---the other very interesting (and sinister) part I remember is (and granted I'm sort of foggy on this), but I think there was some sort of command where I was supposed to die if I heard it. There may have been a command for "commit suicide right now" as well.

Anyway---here's the big important part:
I believe that I am the only graduate of Illuminati High school who remembers the mind control session.
The reason this is important is---everyone in the Illuminati thinks that they worship the "True God" (not Satan). And they all think they are the good guys. They think they are fighting against evil.

And---I know many people who study the Illuminati think the Illuminati is just evil. Well---another revelation for Illuminati Studies is that there are actually 2 quasi-independent organizations, both of which people call Illuminati. The 666 Illuminati has 6000 members and follows Pythagoras. The 333 "Illuminati" or Archons or Overlords (whatever you wish to call them) also has 6000 members, and they are obviously horrifically evil, worshippers of Satan, torture people for amusement, monsters.

So---this has been a long post. But I hope you might realize that:
I'm possibly a major historical figure in exposing the Illuminati
If I could prove to my ex-fellow Illuminati members that they are all under mind control, and that the 333 Archons are actually the masters of the 666 Illuminati---then it's possible that there might be a lot more Illuminati defections.

I would also add that I believe that most Illuminati members are under much heavier forms of mind control than the "general mind control" that I just described that's done to (I believe) all of the subfreshmen at Illuminati High.

The bona-fida Illuminati members are under round-the-clock surveillance. Being in the Illuminati is essentially like being a prisoner who thinks he's a hero fighting for God against the forces of evil (the 333 side) that actually rule the world.

I also received this email from him:

There's a lot I could tell you about the Illuminati.
And---what you said about kids experiencing "missing time" (as I call it) is something familiar to me.

Basically---Uni High in Urbana Illinois is run by the Illuminati. And I was briefly recruited into the I

lluminati proper.

About the missing-time phenomena----I witnessed students at Uni who would sometimes be pulled out of class, and I remember seeing one girl -name removed- who was pulled out of class and she was acting quite strangely, sort of giddy and unlike herself. And the next day she was back in class, and she seemed very confused about not remembering the previous day. And there was something about her getting a homework assignment back and saying something like "that's not something I would write, yet it's in my handwriting."

What causes missing time? Well---mind control is the short answer.

There's a lot about psychology that's kept secret---and much of it relates to spirituality, to sex, to libido, to trance states. I certainly haven't got it all figured out, but if it would interest you, I can offer significant clues.

Have you ever heard of something called a "trance doctor" in the UK? This is one of those big weird secrets that will likely sound very conspiratorial.

Honestly, I wouldn't blame you if you think I'm a nut. But---I hope I seem at least like a somewhat intelligent nut. You might note that Uni High has all sorts of famous intellectuals---it nearly always has the highest test scores in the whole USA, and 3 Nobel winners, ambassadors, professors and so on.

Well, on trace states---I believe (/suspect because I cannot totally verify this) that there is a system of medical doctors in the USA who are trained in how to put people into psychological trances. And the main reason why I believe so is that I've encountered them multiple times, and I've also met people who have talked of their existence.

Memory is sort of a critical puzzle in all this. We tend to have a naive view of our memories as freely available---as if you may remember everything that ever happened. I'm not sure how memory actually works---but I suspect it relates to some unknown property of physics and to unknown properties of psychology---perhaps involving some sort of collective-consciousness based memory. I say this because I have encountered the repeated phenomena where people who once knew things, who once had certain memories, later seem to lose those memories---specifically on taboo topics.

It seems as if there were some sort of spiritual memory-destruction system. Or, more radically---it may even be that "our" individual memories are not primarily stored in our physical brains---but are dispersed in some sort of society-wide collective memory system, which might explain how human memory could somehow be altered or erased.

Anyway---I could probably write a 300 page book about my experiences with Uni High and the Illuminati. I'm in a rather awkward situation now---in that I've basically told the Illuminati to go to hell....and afterwards my life just utterly fell apart. Very negative coincidences (like I got rammed by a truck that didn't even seem to brake---and had a 333 car plate, which is a mark of one wing of the "Illuminati"---there's a lot to explain). So---I'm not overly sure what to do. Also an unknown fighter, who I believe was Illuminati, tried to kill me (in a way that would also require a lot more explanation---there's a way to kill people using 3rd eye trance combined with projecting energy---it would take a lot of explaining).

So---if you're interested, I could tell you a ton of stuff. One problem I've found is that most people, if you say "Illuminati" they will just dismiss everything. Humanity seems tragically closed minded.

There's a lot of libido-related stuff in the Illuminati. And---this is something I don't fully understand. Do you know about energy? About libido energy?

At Uni High, we had a ritual, just the boys, for the Freshmen, in which there was a darkened hallway, and there was a torch. And we were told that "this represents the torch of the Enlightenment and we are carrying the torch to the next generation" sort of ritualistic claptrap. And the gist of the message was the following: all boys needed to lose their virginity as soon as possible and this was priority 1, and that lack of sex would cause schizophrenia, and that this was called Oral History because it was forbidden to write this knowledge down, and then we were forced to swear an oath to say something like "I swear to keep this information secret and I swear that I shall kill anyone who dares reveal it."

My understanding is: that each person has an "energy level" which could also be called libido level (as energy is primarily expressed as libido---which is the sex drive, but also the general power source for motivation and intellectual pursuits). And that this libido level is crucial to a person's success in life. We were told that all the world's most successful people lost their virginity at a very young age--like 13 or so. Sort of as an aside---I actually had sex at my high school at age 13 in this weird basement room (which perhaps I'll ramble more about later).

Anyway---we were also shown, during one class, these graphs which showed distributions of IQ, Intelligence Quotient, alongside EQ, which means Energy Quotient (not---I might add Emotional Intelligence---which is also sometimes called EQ), the measure of libido energy potential. And it was shown to us that there is a correlation between IQ and EQ---which effectively means that the younger a person loses their virginity, combined with whatever natural energy aptitude, influences their intelligence. And we were told that Success in Life = IQ x EQ
In other words: a person must be very intelligent and also have a very strong libido to accomplish very much.

I was also taught that partnered sexual intercourse replenishes energy. Whereas non-partnered masturbation would decrease energy. And that if you avoided sex for too long, and your energy level dropped too far---you would then end up with what's classified by society as a form of schizophrenia. And that society classifies low-energy as schizophrenia because society could not possibly admit that some people have "psychological problems" that are simply based on sexual energy problems---because 1) this would force society to admit the existence of libido energy---which has spiritual qualities. and 2) society couldn't possibly cure people's problems by giving out "medical" sex---because prescribing sex to a patient would upend the whole secret game of sexual competition.

Also---interestingly enough, I once met a woman from the former Soviet Union and she had very interesting things to say about sex. For one she said that the Soviet Union had a system of "sexual reward officers" and that she was one of them---and that they basically were only Peter Folk of Urbana Illinois
Nasri Hajj of Washington DC
Matthew Bandy---Illinois?
Jeff Thorn--at Boeing Co....

These are real Illuminati members....and I could probably list a lot more.

None are "rich and powerful" because the Illuminati work through spiritual means----there's a lot more to explain, but basically magic is real and it's enormously politically important. barely like escorts. She told me that calling her an escort was a gross insult, but that there was really no English translation of her social position---that these Soviet "sex officers" (I forget their name) were well respected, sort of like police officers. And that she was to have sex with certain men as a reward for good service to the Soviet Union---but to perform sex as a representative of the Soviet system---not as an individual. And---she also noted that there was a system of sexual socialism in the Soviet Union and that the rate of so-called schizophrenia in the Soviet system was much lower than in the USA. I add this because it jives with the other information.

One of the things at Uni High that was done, was partnering students together to exchange sexual energy. And the stated purpose was that: if you exchanged sexual energy with someone who was particularly talented in some area, that it would increase your future ability in that area. So as a specific example, there was one young man, named -name removed- --who is now some sort of PhD of chemistry---who was extremely talented at mathematics. And he would sometimes pair up (in private I only heard about these things) with other students, male and female, and they would exchange sexual energy by masturbating together in close physical proximity. (and yes, it sounds very awkward---I was told that boys would masturbate standing back-to-back).

So---the interesting thing about this secret is that it implies that the exchange of sexual energy does something to the mind---perhaps it creates a lasting subconscious connection? Perhaps there's some sort of "imprinting" of memory?

Anyway---I've had two different people in the US military tell me nearly the same thing----that the US army, back in Vietnam, had what they called the "buddy system" in which men---who were away from sexual partners for a long time, out on duty in the field---would be instructed to partner up with another male, go off somewhere in private, and masturbate together in order to replenish their energy levels. And---another man in the US navy told me nearly the same thing about the so-called "buddy system" of partnered male masturbation.

Maybe I should mention the basics of the Illuminati.
There are 6000 members of the Illuminati 666. And---when I was recruited into the Illuminati I was told that the Illuminati are the freedom fighters trying to save the world from an evil organization variously called the Overlords or the Archons (I call them the Overlords), which rules half the world and also has 6000 members. I was told that there was a treaty between the Illuminati 666 and the Overlords 333. I use those numbers, because those triple digit numbers show up on everything connected with them.

As an aside---one way I've thought of "proving" some of this is by taking photographs of car license plates of people from Uni High---a very large number of which contain the number 666 (and until I resigned from the Illuminati, I had 4 different cars, each of which "randomly" contained a number 666 in the plate). When you see a parking lot photo, in which half the cars have 666 plates---it should make even a skeptic about synchronicity and numerology wonder at the long-odds of that being a random coincidence.

Anyway---the reason I resigned from the Illuminati is that I remembered something major that I went through that I don't think most Illuminati members even remember----namely being put under mind control by an extremely evil trio of people----who seemed to be part of the 333 Overlords organization. And plus there was other evidence pointing towards my conclusion: that the "enemies" of the Illuminati---the "overlords" are in fact a wing of the Illuminati.

If you've read the novel 1984---in which there's an evil government that sets up the very resistance movement against itself---that's roughly my understanding of the Illuminati-Overlords. To make it a little weirder----to get slightly Biblical---I note that the Book of Revelation talks of a two-part organization---the Beast of the Land and Beast of the Sea.....with the number 666......which seems plausibly connected to my experience.

So----I'm not really sure what to think----there's a lot more to explain. But I left the Illuminati after.....roughly 6 months---so I never got the proper Illuminati training. I know much less than a typical Illuminati member.

If you want some names:
George Gruschow, of Chicago

So----sorry if this email is rather rambling, but I hope you find it somewhat interesting. You might read about Pythagoras and the Pythagoreans---who became the Illuminati----they basically skyrocketed in knowledge. I was told that humanity took the materialism route, and the Illuminati learned astral projection and took the spiritual route---and the spiritual route leads to vastly increased knowledge and intelligence (there are beings with 300+ IQ scores), and this allowed the Illuminati such enormous power that they focused on defeating the Overlords---a rival spiritual order---and gave up on communicating with humanity. Although now---I suspect that's all a lie.

Anyway---the interesting thing about me is: I may be one of the very few people who was in the Illuminati who is free-enough of their control to actually talk about them. I don't think I mentioned enough that everyone in the Illuminati is under all sorts of mind-control, and they are watched 24/7....it's like a prison---it's surely not caviar and luxury and the nonsense most people think it is---it's pretty much a horrific job.

Well---perhaps I should write that 300 page book:)

I hope that something I've written will resonate with you, and perhaps you might share any thoughts you have, or any weird secrets you know (I'm trying to solve the mystery myself).

And yes, there are people who can read minds. I don't know how. People in the Illuminati described something called influencing---as a psychic skill. It was said to be something like "reading the cartoon thought balloons" above a person's head, and popping the unwanted balloons---as a way to influence what a person would say and think.

When I joined the Illuminati, they gave me a couple code-names. Everyone gets multiple code names. And the weird thing is: they also gave me a website to download videos and music and audios.

I'll give you one of the websites related to them....
https://defocontrey.wordpress.com/
Which seems like just some random person's site. The odd things is---this person's voice is very much similar to mine.....it was rather creepy to first listen to some of the audios.
I was told that each one of us in the Illuminati is given multiple avatars---and that an avatar was something like a clone of your soul.

So----I know this is very odd territory---I don't pretend to understand it. I guess I should just work on my book---I've written a lot, it's just not edited and well-written.

I'm in the odd position that I was only in the Illuminati effectively very briefly---as in, I never received the standard training that they get---they can do all sorts of amazing things, they can watch anyone anywhere somehow. But---I think I also missed out on whatever mind control that new Illuminati members get put through.

I did get put through mind control---when I was 13 at Uni High, just like everyone else at that school. But---I only recently got "re-recruited" in 2012...but after around 6 months I told them I wanted nothing more to do with them, partially because I remembered the mind-control I was put through at age 13---which is something that I don't think anyone else remembers. But I assume that, had I been given training in 2012 or 2013 that it's very plausible that they would've put me through whatever enhanced mind-control that I assume they are all under.

Anyway---maybe I've rambled enough. I should say that Illuminati members seem like the nicest people you would ever meet--they don't seem evil. They say that they worship the "True God." But---one of the things I remember from my 13 year old mind-control experience (which was nasty), was that "God means Satan" and I was forced to say "I accept Satan as my father," and also accept the mind-control woman as my mother---who knows the psychology of it all.

So---I've got a lot to write about.

One thing you could verify is that Uni High has 333 in the phone numbers....and.....if you wanted to bother with researching the alumni of Uni High, nearly all of their home addresses have multiple 6's in them, such as 1616 Somewhere Road, or 626 Niceview Drive....and so on. I add this because it's something verifiable---hopefully proof of odd numerological synchronicities.

This was the last email I received and it's been nearly a year since I heard from him. I hope he's ok.

The Tree of Life and the Hollywood Atheism Agenda.

Terrence Malik Presents: God Hates Dinosaurs. 

Let us take a trip to the sacred Holly-wood and take an interest in the work of Terrence Malik. Mr Malik is a not particularly busy man. Every couple of years he makes a film which the media all get excited about and tell us that we also should get excited about it too, and many people not knowing any better, jump on the media bandwaggon and do as they're told and decide to get excited. It's that comforting feeling that yuppies and hipsters get when they feel part of the clever club because they enjoy films that the media tell them are 'intelligent' or 'artistic' and 'challenging'.

Malik is an Arabic word which means King or Lord and is a form of the word Moloch and also Melchor, which are Phoenician names for Baal. One might assume a certain interest in the occult as Malik made a film called The Knight of Cups who poster shows one of the magic sigils, the triangle of Solomon, used by the OTO and Satanic groups in demonic rituals. This film stars Christian Bale. It is also worth noting that the name Bale is also a name which evoke the Semitic name Baal leader of the Raphaim, the residents of the underword, or Lord, most commonly applied to the Demon God also known as Molech, Malchur and hence Malik. 

Terrence Malik is most probably a member of Aleister Crowley’s occult group The Ordo Templi Orientis or OTO. His film The Tree of Life was produced by Brad Pitt and stars Sean Penn and Brad Pitt. Sean Penn’s early involvement with Madonna draws him closely into the OTO Kabbalah web. Both Brad Pitt and Sean are very likely members of the OTO and it is for this reason that they have been given this level of stardom and wealth. Only those inside the secret group who have sworn their oaths and paid their dues are rewarded with A-list celebrity status.

The Tree of Life in reference is the Kabbalistic Tree of Life and we can expect when watching this film that the audience is likely to be inducted into the particular point of view of the OTO practicing Kabbalist.

The devious trickery of a film like Tree of Life in particular, is that it propagates its message, and it does have a message, it isn’t just entertainment it is proselytism and propaganda of the crudest kind. It is proselytizing its particular world-view by creating a story and a cast of characters, which it fully controls. It is not showing us reality, but an artificial reality which Malik has created in order to sell you his idea. And that idea is that the idea of a Christian God, or indeed any conception of God, is absurd and the kind of delusion shared only by the most foolishly naïve backwoods type of in-bred Christian hicks who probably live in Waco and have protruding chins and goofy children with big jug ears.

And so Malik literally sets the scene and shows us what he wants us to see. He shows us backwoods Christians hicks who live in Waco, have protruding chins and have goofy children with big jug ears. He paints an image of human self delusion against the endless cruelty of life and an impassive cold universe which seems to have no connection with human beings and their problems and shows us a specially created cast of characters along with specially selected music and images, to show us the absurdity of their beliefs.

He creates the image of the world as cruel and chaotic and asks the question 'why does God allow this suffering?' Real life is much more nuanced than a propaganda film for Satanic OTO God haters of course, but the power of film and the stars and machinery of Hollywood is such that the average movie gooer doesn’t really suspect he or she is being indoctrinated into atheism for the price of admission, popcorn and a Big Gulp, particularly when it’s an ‘art house’ film, the paying public are already on their knees in deference to a big exclusive Hollywood director and ‘auteur’ like Malik, whose reputation and career the media have mythologised to the level of some kind of Hollywood prophet dispensing holy Hollywood truths and conditioning the gullible hipsters and telling them what to think while the sheep like bearded trendsters and faux intellectuals obediently chew over the cud of Malik's diatribe, with glazed unthinking eyes. For instance Salon strongly promoted this movie, calling it a ‘domestic epic’ and ‘the most talked about movie of the summer’. The NY Times said: "(the film) envisions the origins of the universe and ponders some of life's deepest questions."

The whole point of films like this is for people to go to who want to prove that they are not popcorn chomping plebians and have some kind of depth within them. So they go to films like this, and feel confused for two hours, and emerge even more confused, much more so than when they went in, and talk to their friends about how confused they feel and somehow imagine that this is what passes for intellectual fulfillment.

The film starts with a quote from the book of Job, the theme of patient suffering is a key theme of the film but the film subverts this and asks us why we should suffer at all. At one point someone in the film says:

"Do you trust in God? Job too was close to God. The very moment everything was taken away from Job, he knew God had taken it."

It begins with a feeble female voice-over, her voice throughout the film scarcely seems to register at times and it's hard to know what she's saying. She is thus portrayed as a weak withdrawn character. She is the confused and pitiable Christian which Malik serves up as part of his polemic discourse.

“The nuns taught us there are two ways through life

The way of nature and the way of grace, we have to choose which one to follow.

Grace doesn’t try to please itself, accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked, accepts insults and injuries.”

This is actually more in tune with the Kabbalah and the book of Zohar which believes that there are two paths through life, the path of pain and the path of light.

“Nature only wants to please itself, get others to likes to lord it over them, it has its own way. Finds reasons to be unhappy when all the world is shining around it and love is smiling through all things. They taught us that no one who loves the way of grace ever comes to a bad end. I will be true to you whatever comes."

I've Got a Letter from God. He Hates You Too

The film then comes to a scene with a woman in a sunny conservatory receiving a letter which she opens and after a moment of shock appears to collapse in grief after which there is a sudden jump cut. We assume that the woman has just received news that her son has been killed. It is as if her faith has already proved fruitless and she has been rewarded for her belief in God with the death of her son. The sequences of events is such that it is almost made to seem like a cause and effect relationship, that having faith in God will lead to the death one's children. At the very least the inference is that God does not listen to those who worship him and is unworthy of worship since he is apparently keen to visit random acts of tragedy on even his most faithful supporters.

The movie has the mother in a continuous process of grief, calling on a God which within the tableau of the film is either impassive or absent. It pays to remember that what we are watching is an artificial construction of images and ideas designed to create an overall impression, this is propaganda, as pure ruthless and artful as that of Leni Reifenshahl, and while Reifenstahl wanted us to reject and hate Jews, Malik wants us to reject and possibly hate God.

God is presented by one of the Christian women, while she is trying to apparently console the mother, in the following way:

"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away and that's the way he is. He sends flies to wounds that he should heal."

Not only are we presented with the idea of an absent God but also a malicious and capricious one.



The feeble narrative continues in an manner utterly convincing to the character Malik is trying to convince us actually exists. The apparently simple minded naïve Christian woman is now further interpolating a God she does not know. The whole point of Christianity and Jesus’ ministry is that we as Christians DO know God. We know God through his son Jesus and the message of love and forgiveness which Jesus showed us. She says to God:

“What are we to you? Answer me.”



Someone with faith wouldn’t interrogate God because they know the presence of God is not something which is immediately going to climb down from the clouds, brush his beard and start merrily explaining himself and all of creation. The presence of God is within all of us and is necessarily not directly perceivable in the material world. Of course, creation and life itself is evidence of God in the first instance. Also this kind of search for God as a spokesman is a baffling idea and instances in the news of people claim to have been speaking to God usually don’t end well. Either a schizophrenic carried out a murder because God told him to, or George W Bush invades Iraq which leads to the death of upwards of a million people. God then, seems to shun direct human dialogue, this seems to be more the domain of ‘the other guy’, the one with the horns.



The next shot, juxtaposes a mother’s yearning for some sign from God over her dead son and some sort of prayer with a shot which shows vast gas clouds and nebulae, terrifying in their remoteness to daily human suffering. And Malik shows us an impassive unconcerned universe of Gas giants and galaxies which just don’t seem to be listening. We see the surface of the sun, terrifying in its power and, again, seen to be remote from Earth and the life of a simple human family. A shot of bursting lava and forces of apparent chaos and incredible power, so far removed from the human experience as to seem to relegate human concerns into insignificance. I am rather saddened that a film like this is seen as intelligent and of great spiritual depth, the artifice is obvious and the labored propaganda directed specifically against Christianity and theism itself, is of the most paltry and simple minded kind. This film is simply not worthy of the medium, and Terrence Malik himself is rather a second rate film director lacking the subtlety which has distinguished certain propagandists of the past to at least a certain level of artistic merit.

What the film fails to tell you is that suffering is a choice which we as humans make. One can choose to suffer from the events of life or one can choose to move on and make the best of your life and its circumstances. This fear of death and obsession with human suffering seems to be something which we find within the typical Satanist. Pain. This pain seems to inform their whole view of reality itself. Also this view that death is some kind of disaster, is a materialistic one, not a spiritual or religious one. In fact from a certain spiritual perspective death is a blessing because it means one has become free and unchained from this fallen physical world, and I think there can be few doubts that what we are dealing with here on Earth IS a fallen world.

This terror of death which people involved with the occult experience was nowhere more pronounced than in the inglorious passing of David Bowie whose final album was a shameful display of a petulant child bawling his eyes out because his father told him it was bed time.

Not a happy Bowie. 

The parable of Jesus’ that it is easier for camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven, can be explained because the rich man with his life of luxury, ease and all his earthly pleasures instantly fulfilled, would feel at death that someone was taking everything away from him. This possibly partially explains the obsession which the rich have with longevity and the former fruitless fad with cryogenics. The rich simply cannot bear the thought of dying and losing everything, while the poor, as Jesus says, ‘yours is the Kingdom’ because they have nothing to lose by leaving this world and joyfully embracing the next. Personally I found this attitude highly prevalent when I lived in Egypt. I would talk to people in Cairo, most of the people who live in Egypt are poor, and many of them think another world war seems inevitable but the general consensus was not of fear but of a sense that death is not the worst thing, and in fact since their lives were so hard and they had so little to lose and so they were not afraid of leaving this world.

That's Where God Lives....Said No Christian Ever.

Perhaps the most stupidly transparent and brazen moment in the film comes when we have just seen a brown rabbit running down a furrow, to the endlessly tiresome sub-normal retarded woman twirling her son in her arms and pointing to the sky and saying ‘that’s where God lives.’

Space: Jupiter Lives There!

I mean, who does that? Literally no one would ever do that. And of course, all of this was set up twenty minutes before when we saw that there is nothing in the sky except for Jupiter with frightening music, and blind mechanistic forces and raging solar storms. I’m pretty sure Malik knows what a fraud he is and must hate this scene in its sheer wanton contrivance, which is probably why he refused to turn up to accept any awards for it, in fact I wouldn’t be at all surprised if Malik knows what a sham and imposter he really is which is why he won’t give any interviews or make any public announcements about his work.

Yet for the second time this is just not what any Christian or anyone who followed a religion of any kind would even say. The dialogue and the character which Malik has created is a fraud. An unlikely and unbelievable artifice. A Christian bears their sorrows and keeps their faith until their sorrows become a vibrant part of their spiritual experience. A Christian knows this world and the conditions in it are far from perfect and would not expect them to be so, otherwise they would not be Christians who understand the nature of the world they are in and await entry into a better one. It is however just the kind of question someone in spiritual darkness might ask, and clearly, Malik is a man in spiritual pain and darkness. Malik lost his brother in a bizarre suicide, after he broke his own hands in frustration at apparently not being able to reach a certain level of excellence with his guitar lessons with a Spanish virtuoso guitarist.

Yet again, we find an inability to deal with pain and disappointment. In the case of Terrence Malik’s brother who killed himself because he wasn’t a guitar genius, and in the instance of Terence Malik himself who seems to be haunted by the pain of the loss of his brother. Isn’t there almost a petulance in their actions and ways of thinking? An unwillingness to progress and accept that life something is hard, but instead they react in excessively disproportionate ways, with suicide or Satanism.

If Satan himself were to make a presentation to mankind in order to convince him to collectively deny the existence of God, this is exactly the film he would make, and perhaps he has, using his human agent Terence Malik to speak for him.

Brad Pitt takes it on the chin to pull his Waco Christian 'Tard Face. 

The characters themselves, the apparently pious Christian couple at the centre of the film are depicted a pair of fools who seem to be huddling together somewhere near the bottom end of the autism spectrum. Jessica Chastain mumbles her way through the film as if the character she is playing has just escaped from a secure facility and is still heavily sedated.

Brad Pitt 'Tards Hard for this Movie. 

Brad Pitt’s pulls every facial expression he can think of to show that his character is somewhat below Forrest Gump in intelligence, in fact at one point Brad Pitt ludicrously at one point has his chin sticking out like the literal retard face you pulled as a kid in the playground, except that, rather incongruously this idiotic semi-retarded backwoods Christian owns a nice house and can play piano. But then again we’ve all seen Deliverance and we know that in-bred hill billies sometimes play a mean banjo.

Brad Pitt plays with his organ while pulling Christian Tard-Face TM. 

You Just Went Full Retard.

Goofy looking Christians. Collect the whole set! 

Goofy Looking Christians! Gotta Catch 'Em All.

A Straight Flush of Goofy Christians.

The children in this film are shown staggering about like animals, witlessly, almost appearing to drool at times and the inference is that human beings are no different to animals, particularly children who belong to Christian families. The characters in this film are deliberately played as ridiculous and pitiable because the viewer is supposed to find their religion ridiculous and pitiable. There is even a scene where the group of neighbourhood children are seen playing in clouds of toxic DDT mosquito killer. This scene seems to embody the idea of senseless cruelty and again, is such a clearly contrived idea to labour a particular sense of hopelessness.

This seems to connect with the scene where the children are wantonly cruel to each other and animals. One scene has the children tie a frog to a rocket while another scene shows children inflicting pain on each other. 

The key theme of the film is pain and the movie revels in it and would try to tell the movie-goer that this is all there is to life. Pain, cruelty and loss. 

  
A deliberately nihilistic skewed vision of reality which is a million miles removed from most of our lives which generally tend not to revolve around pain and wanton cruelty.

In fact the actors playing his sons in the film also seem to have been especially chosen to most resemble the backwoods hillbilly boy. With big jug ears and dopey witless bovine expressions. Most movies choose conventionally attractive or cute child actors, but not this movie, that’s because the characters in this film are not supposed to be aspirational or heroic, or even likeable, in fact the opposite is the case.

“My soul, my son" Jessica Chastain mumbles, and we are reminded of course that the only thing of importance in the whole universe is of course, a human being’s lack of knowledge about the transition between this world and the next world, and the pain and sorrow which this lack of understanding causes.

The Jellyfish, the Most Religious and Pious of All God's Creatures.

The film is trying to show the heaven and the deep cosmos as a series of blind mechanistic forces, whether storms, cells, lava volcanoes or even the lives of mere human beings. During these tiresome and pointless displays some kind of religious choral music is played, as if to show that the Kingdom of God and the reality of the eternal divine in nothing but jellyfish, seaweed and the odd deep space gas cloud.

It is the scientists’ vision of the world, but not the first rate innovative scientist like Tesla, Newton or Max Plank, but the media idea of a scientist. The materialist with something quirky about him. Whether it be a scientist who used to be in a dance band singing songs to Tony Blair or the scientist trapped in a wheelchair. The scientist who has been initiated, likely by watching films such as this, into forgetting his own experience of the infinite and being forced to reduce himself to a blood cell travelling down a capillary to feed a chicken embryo.

The astonishing thing is that it all smacks of some incredible arrogance, as all such atheistic concepts do, that somehow the natural world is not good enough for us, that why should we be pumped full of blood and little different to a chicken. Why should we be subjected to the laws of the material world and have to suffer birth, life and death. Why should we? Aren’t we so much better than a mechanistic universe?

Obviously the idea is inane, and very possibly insane, and it takes a man of an especially warped creative ability to be able to convey such an idea in film.

The Mistake Malik makes is to try to Prove God's Non-Existence by Offering the Evidence of the  Macrocosm, but God Lives in the Quantum Microcosm.

While this woman is breathlessly droning on about the search for her lost child we are shown an image of Jupiter and images of bodies of the solar system. The inference of course is clear, that your child is not here. Indeed, they are not anywhere. All that is up in the sky are terrifying large planets while scary and tumultuous classical choral music plays.

The Tree of Life has been largely misunderstood by its media audience, or at least as I suspect, deliberately miss-sold as a religious film when it is thoroughly and completely an atheist’s film, however Richard Brody makes the correct analysis of the film:

“…there’s no God in ‘The Tree of Life’, but rather, the scientific origin and development of the world – which he depicts and nonetheless miraculous.”

Film critic Roger Ebert wrote: ”human lives diminish beneath the overarching majesty of the world”. What he means is that human lives are insignificant compared to the force of blind materialism, which of course, is a key belief to atheistic humanists.

Films like this appeal to people who cannot grasp metaphysical or spiritual concepts for themselves and need to be told that there is no God.

The website topsecret writers seems to share my concerns and asks:

"Should he inform the public about his philosophies and religious beliefs that he spreads in his films?
Or does Malick essentially use his films for unlabeled propaganda for new-age beliefs. In short, what does Terrence Malik have to hide?"
Are Malick’s Films Simply New Age Propaganda?
Malik is arguably using his films as ‘unwitting’ propaganda to distribute his ‘new age’ and Gnostic beliefs that “knowledge has a redeeming and liberating function that helped the individual break free of bondage to the world.”

http://www.topsecretwriters.com/2011/05/what-does-filmmaker-terrence-malick-have-to-hide/

The website also notes his lack of public appearances and the specific banning of photographs. Nor was he even present to accept the Canne D’or from the prestigious Cannes film festival, surely the high point in the career of any film maker? My suspicion is frankly, that Malik knows it’s all a sham and that he is nothing but a propagandist and knows too that the whole of the organized media from television, press, to even supposed ‘avant garde’ film festivals are all part of the same rotten club, and he frankly just couldn’t be bothered to play his part any further than he really had to. For him, making his beastly odious films is all he is willing to do. He will not speak for them, nor will he accept awards for them.

Oh the sheer creepy crawly Goldnessness of creation. Malik subtext: Praying is for idiots and insects.

Watching The Tree of Life is like experiencing life through schizo-vision. For instance there is a shot of a child playing with its father which is quickly cut to a tree frog climbing a blade of grass, then an anatomical drawing or a praying mantis (a shorthand for the hidden terror of the natural world) to a child wearing a Halloween mask.

But why? Noone experiences life like this. Noone makes rapid associations between a child playing in a garden to frogs and praying mantids. Noone except someone who is suffering with mental illness and wants to share his living nightmare with us.

Everything is deliberately made sinister in this movie. But we know that much of life isn’t sinister at all, maybe mundane at worst. But here, we are experiencing life through the lens of schizophrenic confusion and the terror of false and anomalous associations.

The film is very keen at all times to attempt to correlate human activities to those of animals. All the boy seems to do is sleep and run around and fight with each other. The one moment when the boy is not seen running around is a meal setting where Brad Pitt has again evoked God and shown that Christian parents are tyrannical and have no human relationship with their parents.

The relationship between Brad Pitt and his Christian family is depicted as slightly unnatural and oppressive. When the son asks if his father can pass the butter, his father rebukes him saying ‘pass the butter please sir’, The sons have the timidity of tortured or abused children. I half expected the Brad Pitt character to punch his wife in the face and say ‘stop talking woman.’ In fact he and his wife do actually have a physical confrontation at one point in the film.

“Do you love your father.” The son responds meekly with a ‘yes sir’ of an abused air of someone suffering from Stockholm syndrome.
 
The sinister element is also evoked with the reliance on pieces of heavy classical music as a kind of short-hand for the blind and dangerous mechanistic forces of the universe does become a bit tiresome after a while, and one wonders how Malik would possibly have conveyed 90 percent of his ideas without the use of selected suites, opuses and overtures. He simply wouldn’t. The music did 90 percent of the work in this film and as far as I know Malik had no part in that. The movie is basically people wandering around in a variety of locations. With foreboding choral classical music in the background, while a mother kisses a boy. And that’s about it. It makes one realise what a fraud Malik is and how several well esteemed actors including the legendary Christopher Plummer vow never to work with the man again and demand that he obtain a script writer. Malik doesn’t seem to believe in scripts. He probably just asks his actors to wander around while afterwards choosing which composer’s music will actually decide what it all means.

In 2015 Malik released the Knight of Cups, and according to the film’s star Christian Bale, not only was there no script, but Bale literally knew nothing about his own character or the events of the film. He didn’t even know who else was in the film and one of the film’s stars Teresa Palmer, he had initially thought was a stripper. The film spent two years in post production and in all likelihood it was here that Malik actually decided what the film would actually be about since all of the dialogue from Bale is provided in narrative voice-over. Malik would also send actors unexpectedly into a scene in order to get a reaction from the actors who were performing.

From all of this one gets the impression that working with Terrence Malik is less a professional engagement and more an initiatory ordeal. The key to the initiatory ordeal is the unknown and fear, also sudden surprises. All of these elements would be experienced to anyone working with Terrence Malik and is the reason many well known actors have vowed never to work for him again and have expressed disillusionment with his methods.

The public and actors themselves, for their own mental well being, be very wary of having anything to do with Terrence Malik and his films.